Exams are like mere weeks away.Urgh.
Heyys.Okay,firstly,what I intended to do on Monday didn't happen cause apparently I didn't see someone.So wth.InsyaAllah ,tomorrow I'll give,cause I don't feel like holding on to it also.
Yesterday was sooo sooo soo awesome,accompanied Hayati to ICA to make her IC.Went with Fadly and Madh.These 2 crazy peeps simply CANNOT go together,havoc man...After going to ICA,we went to Golden Mile Food Centre to eat.Had such a great time.Haha.Ice kacang without kacang.It reminded me of somone.Reached Hayati's hse kinda late and had to wait for the photocopy lady like forever and in the end Fadly paid for a cab ride home.I didn't know he was soo much fun till this year.Well yesterday we didn't get to present SS either,and as predicted we were, I think the only grp who did our project.Got so excited for nothing,nvm,at least we're prepared.
EXams are like super SUPER near.And I haven't started revisions yet.I'm planning on going out this weekend to study.Even if it means going alone,I think I'll concentrate better.Hmm.Have ngaji in a while but someone has yet to reply me.I'm so frustrated man...urgh.Glenn was really sweet.He said that I'm the only one who bought him a bdae gift this yr while his parents acted lyk they didn't care.Well,I understand what it's like to have your birthday totally ignored.That's why I make the effort to get people gifts even if I usually don't get anything back.Well,I'm going off for now.Bro wanna use comp.Start revising my dears...Chao!
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
05:56 p.m.

*yawns*
Its like so late already and I'm supposed to be sleeping cause tmr's a school day.Hehe.But I think its still early to a certain extent.Well,this has been one hell of a week.And that's all I can say to sum it up.
Well,madhiah's gone.I had fun ranting with her,talked abt so many people.And madh,I know what to get you for ur next birthday,probably one of those dream interpretations book.Haha.
Well,I've lost the mood to blog cause I'm feeling sleepy.*yawns*.Nights all.And to my sec4 seniors,good luck once again.
Sunday, September 11, 2005
10:39 p.m.

Amelia- The 'irritating teacher you need to acquire skills to be friends with'.
Haiz.Stomachache.Madhiah just recounted to me the whole convo with someone.LOL.I don't know.I still feel amused.Its like deja-vu,memories coming back to me.I remember we fought about this once before.So its like,so petty issue to fight over.Oh well,honestly,I don't know.My initial plan was to give you your birthday prezzie on Monday,reconcile and well,give in.Now,what did I hear you say? I'm on your tail? Please la,like I have that much time...tsktsktsk.And yea,I don't think befriending me actually 'acquires skill'.I don't see many others needing it...
So yes,I'm rethinking Monday's plan.Should I or should I not? Dilemma man.Tmr's already a Sunday,tell me what you think by tmr can? Okay,really,what are the chances you will.Nvm,I bought your gift and I've made the resolve.So chances are I will go ahead with it.I know,I'm so irritating right....Hmm,what else was there? *wonders*.Haha,nvm,shan't infuriate you further,later you angry all over again.Haha,thanks for thing though,telling me that my future doesn't lie in education and nurturing young minds..I'm definitely not cut out to be a 'teacher' right? Haiz,amelia,amelia...like that cannot fulfil my mom's dreams liao.Too bad lor,maybe I'll pursuit law afterall.Haha.Night to you and everyone else who happens to read this.
P.S I've never been more blatant in my entry.But really,I'll like to know what you think of Monday.Can?Chao!
Saturday, September 10, 2005
11:00 p.m.

Maybe,I'm feeling loads better too.
Honestly, I've nothing to update about.School's starting in a day or two,and my homework is still hanging.As usual.So yes,what's new people?
I'm sort of not really looking forward to school,I miss it no doubt.But I don't know why I don't feel lyk going to school anymore,its like I've lost my enthusiasm for it.I think I need new motivation to go to school..hmm.*ponders*
Hey.New blog song.AGAIN.I think I've getting infected with someone's fickle-mindedness.lol.No offence yea?Oh ya,and the thing abt so called 'labelling' you,can we forget it,cause I said it out of pique.Can? Its nice to hear that you've cooled down.I wanna talk to you again.Can?
Okay,suddenly I'm like using a lot of 'cans'.Hehe.Well,I better be off now.My cousins are coming over,and I need to go to NP,to get school supplies and get that SOMEONE's birthday gift,I hope he/she will like what I have in mind.
I'm so psyched about our SS presentation,wish us luck! And yea,BX,thanks for the reminder to do CME.It totally slipped my mind.Well,wishing one and all a goood term.And to my snrs,good luck for the prelims!Chao!
Saturday, September 10, 2005
05:06 p.m.

Good luck
I am officially out of steam.LOL.Let's quit the rantings aites? You go settle your masalah-masalah sumer dulu,then you decide whtr or not you want to talk to me ever again.For now,I'll pray for your wellbeing and for a brighter week kays?
Chao people!
Friday, September 9, 2005
12:47 p.m.

Noone Can Make You Inferior Without Your Consent.
I'm so sleepy.You know what was my sleep like last night.Well,I went to bed at 12.Didn't sleep till 12.30.Woke up at 2 cause I had a weird dream.Slept again at like 2.20.Woke up at 5 cause I couldn't sleep well.Slept again at 6 before waking up at 8.And I couldn't keep my mind off things.
I'll admit,I already miss chatting with him even though he's just a friend.And as long as this goes on,not only will my insomnia be a constant occurence,I'll probably slip into depression again.I don't understand why he's doing this to me.
Right now,I feel more hurt than upset.Imagine,hours of straining your neck reading HTML codes which you hardly understand,changing it at another's whim and fancy and everything,EVERYTHING just gone just like that.Whatsmore,teaching someone to do something that is kinda tough...and what do I get in return.NOTHING.It didn't use to matter to me,I take pride in my work and knowing that someone else was contented with his template and the way everything was running,I didn't complain.I even said I didn't mind.Now,everything's gone.JUst like that.ZAP.GONE.NEVER TO BE SEEN AGAIN.If you think it was easy to do,think again.You know how much it takes,and how long it takes.It just shows how ungrateful you can be and how much you respect me not even as a friend,but as an individual.Reality check,my friend, and some soul searching is what you desperately need.And there was me thinking that you did EVERYTHING on your own.Well,now I know,you didn't.And its interesting to see that my advice was actually heeded.It looks better now.
I don't know how long you intend to do this to me,how long you intend to make me suffer,how long you intend to tell me that my worrying for you,my caring for your wellbeing,my concern at whtr or not you were alright was all done in VAIN.I don't hate you,nor do I dislike you,I still consider you as a friend,but for how long,that's up to you.If you intend to continue pushing me deeper into this pit of guilt,there's nth I can do.Its time you learnt the meaning of r-e-s-p-e-c-t.Not just to the people you like,but to everyone.Including people who care enough about you to call you their FRIEND.I just wanna tell you that if you should ever,EVER need anyone to fall back on,I'll still be here,I'll never desert you,even though you're just a friend.I've been thru alot.All I ask of you is to think for yourself....Reality Check.
Thursday, September 8, 2005
08:32 p.m.

QUIDAM!
Haiz.Of all the things he has done to me before,this has got to hurt the most.Hours of effort,just all gone.Haiz,let's not talk about that.It'll only hurt me more.
QUIDAM BY CIRQUE DU SOLEIL WAS AWESOME!!!!!! SPECTACULAR!DAZZLING!MAGICAL!I loved it soo soo much.Its no wonder people pay 200 over bucks to watch them.I wouldn't mind going for them all over again.
Okay,I am officially late for my project meeting.So I'd better go off now.I love the PPT presentation.So proud of myself.*beams*
And yea,one more thing,to that someone,for that long you took,it was a good effort to do it yourself,however I think the song scroller doesn't go there.Try putting it elsewhere.
Chao!
Thursday, September 8, 2005
12:09 p.m.

Tell me,what DO you want me to do?
Haiz,I don't know lah.I'm so tired now.Didn't sleep the entire night cause each time I tried to fall asleep,what he said would come flooding back to me.Now I'm like so lost and listless,I don't even know who was at fault anymore.And like,should I try to talk to him or just ignore? I know myself,I won't be able to ignore this for long.I have to do something but I don't know what.And its lyk,he was already feeling so depressed by something even though he didn't tell me that but I could sense it.And this,its like it all keeps adding.I feel so.....I don't know what's the word.You know,a tinge of guilt,alot of frustration and disappointment plus a pinch of confusion.I don't know anything anymore.
Wednesday, September 7, 2005
09:07 a.m.

I have my feelings too.
To that someone...
Haiz.I know I shouldn't be doing this as it'll only make things worse.But I think I have the right to speak my mind.Firstly,you were the one who asked me what I thought.Obviously I said what I did cause that's how the 'situation' is really like.If you did not want to get offended by me pointing out what is really happening,then you should have thought of it before you asked me.You should have thought of whether or not you'd be willing to accept what I was gonna say.I'm not looking down on you,in fact I respect you as my senior.But since you yourself asked me,I said what I thought.What's the point of me lying to you just to make you feel good but suffer inside knowing that I lied to you? I don't normally lie to my friends,what I think is good for them to know I'll say.You yourself said that if I do want to help,I should ask you first,and in the beginning I DID ask you.And why did you have to bring it up again when I thought you had dropped it? And the thing abt 'online tuitions',it happened months ago.Why bring it up now?I knew that you didn't want it,I didn't say anything more of it.
Like you,I don't like the fact that I'm being looked down on too,just because I happen to be in secondary 3.But I hate to say this,but I'm sure you know that you need help.I'm not saying that I'm the ONLY one who can help you,but knowing you,what are the chances you'll ask for help?My sole intention is clear.I want to help you pull through and go where you want to.You're a good person,you deserve to have a good future and you have the potential to live your dreams.But time and again,not only do you reject the help I offer, you make me suffer by doing things that you know can actually hurt me.You said you didn't have time for fights,but think for yourself..what did you just do?
I have my feelings too.I know my place as your junior but I've never heard of the rule saying that someone younger can't help someone older.Age is but a number,its exposure and results that support the fact that I am doing better tha n you are.I don't mean to say that you are inferior to me,cause you aren't.You surpass me in many other aspects but its just one thing that I happen to be better in.Can't you even give me that little bit of respect and tell me properly that you don't feel like you need to help of a junior,rather than just suddenly blocking me without warning.Moreover,you didn't even give me the chance to explain myself.
I'm sure you'll read this,and if you truly do not hold grudges,I'm expecting to see you online again.Think over what I've said..and not just on this ocassion but think abt the last time we fought,what we promised each other and what you thought of things.Please,I beseech you to do me this favour.And the song,read the lyrics,maybe it'll help you understand how I feel.
Tuesday, September 6, 2005
07:57 p.m.

Say Anything-Good Charlotte
"Say Anything" Here I am on
The phone again, and
Awkward silence is
On the other end
I used to know the sound
Of a smile in your voice
But right now (right now)
All I feel (All I feel)
Is the pain of the fighting
Starting up again
All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind
On my mind
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time
After time after time
Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you wanna stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Some say that
Time changes
Best friends can
Become strangers
But I don't want that
No, not for you
If you just stay with me, we can make it through
So Here we are again
The same old argument
And now I'm wonderin'
If things'll ever change, yeah
When will you laugh again?
Laugh like you did back when
We'd make noise til 3 AM and the neighbors would complain
All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind
On my mind
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time
After time after time
Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you wanna stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
I'm fallin'
I'm fallin'
I'm fallin' down
I'm fallin'
I'm fallin'
I'm fallin' down
Down
Down
Down
Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you wanna stay
If you'll just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Don't say a word (Please don't leave)
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away (Please don't leave)
I know you wanna stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Tuesday, September 6, 2005
07:43 p.m.

Live life to the fullest
Guess who I saw just now,but incredibly didn't feel like seeing? LOL.But well,that's another story.
I realised I didn't write about yesterday.Well yesterday,one of my distant aunt passed away.She's been suffering from breast cancer for a while now and it seems that chemo didn't work.I pity her daughter the most,if I'm not wrong,she's lost her whole immediate family.
Well,like I said tons of times before,life is only so short,why waste it right?So yup,make the best use of every opportunity presented to you.
I maybe possible going to Quidam by Cirque De Soleil on Wednesday night as I may be getting a free ticket.Kinda excited,I've never been to the circus before.What's more,a world renowned company.
Argh!Chem remedial tmr.Total sianness man.And I don't even know what we're supposed to bring.LOL.I'm thinking of purposely coming late.hehe.After that we have like 15mins of English and then we have like SS project Part1.haha.The hands-on session.So excited.
Hmm,I wanna make choc muffins ar.When sey free?Cause it seems that I'm more or less booked for the whole week.
Well,chao-ing now,maybe I'll help someone look for a nice skin.And after that off to ngaji.I love ngaji-ing now.Haha.Chao peeps!
Monday, September 5, 2005
05:25 p.m.

I wish I could turn back time.
I happen to be bloghopping and I realised something.I mean,I've made a vow to myself to forget him but I can't let this rest till I get it out.I was reading something and I realised what I've done wrong.Unwittingly and without meaning to,I had tried to change him to become someone he did not want to be.I sort of feel guilty now,but if I could just have that one more chance and prove it to him that I never intended to do what I did,maybe this chapter of my life can finally find some sort of closure.
My life and my feelings for him are becoming like some sort of a confusing storybook.You know,the sort where you always have to turn back and reread what has happened before finally you understand and move on or those books that make you turn back no matter how much you want to move on and complete the story.The pages of this chapter of my life are, needless to say,torn and frayed.I've moved forward and flipped back so many times,I'm now stucked at one place.The more I cling on to this unreciprocated love,the more I hurt myself.I know its not worth it,but if I could let go that easily,I would have done so long ago.
I'm not stupid enough to hurt myself on purpose,I've always stood firm on the principle to love oneself before loving others.But I realised that when I learn to love someone else,I neglect loving myself.I've made myself suffer.Don't get me wrong,I don't hate myself but I just feel so silly for letting myself fall so deep.I wish that human emotions could be controlled and manipulated.But then again....
What I really really want is just one more day,just one more chance to tell him how much he has meant and will always mean to me.I want to right all the wrongs that I have done to him.
As I reach a two-year mark of this bittersweet chapter of my life,I pray that my wish will finally be granted.And to him,all the best for your exams,I'm praying for you to do well and may your future be bright.

Its okay to be angry
And never let go.
It only gets harder the more that you know.
When you get lonely and noone's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down.
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes
And call me your friend...
-empty apartment(yellowcard)
Sunday, September 4, 2005
05:32 p.m.

In with new,out with the old.
Heys.New skin eh?LOL.Was kinda bored.And since I'm so called starting a new chapter of my life,I decided to do away with the old skin which showed a emotional and vulnerable side of me.And this new,more angsty skin really grew on me.And I hope Madh won't kill me for using this song which she claims is "her" song.=p.I love the song on her blog.Haha.Besides,I love this song.FYI,its Finch-Letters to you.Well,in case you read this Madh,shoutbox's screwed up again.Its time u converted to Cbox.
Okay,gtg now.Having some sort of a bbq party at home.To my 2 friends:Good luck with tmr's performance!

Saturday, September 3, 2005
08:08 p.m.

Letting go?
*whoops* The holidays are here! Haha,I don't usually rejoice when the hols come arnd but right now,I feel that this upcoming break is so well-deserved.I don't know,I'm getting bored with the spamming,haha,so yup,what's new rightt?
You know,my heart is lyk so undecided now.I don't even understand myself anymore.Like they say,"things I was sure of they have filled me up with doubt."Hmm,I don't know,maybe finally I am letting go,after being so infuriated on Tuesday.It was something like the last straw,something inside me had snapped and it made me realise...Hey,he ain't worth it.I've been so stupid to waste two years of my life,two years that could have been spent alot better.Maybe right now,I'm finally having what is called "the biggest regret of my life".But I guess I'll learn from all this.Never has anyone mattered so much to me,and yet at the same time can make me feel so stupid.
I know I shouldn't be depreciating myself but I can't help it,if there's anytime better for me to let go,its now.Or never...
Friday, September 2, 2005
06:21 p.m.

Zero Acceleration?
Okay.So that didn't go as well as planned.Well,you people can diss all you want.I'm so used to performing,I'm immune to negative critisms.But the band rocked,special thanks going out to Azlan and Fareez for their impromtu decisions to play.LOL.We owe you guys alot.
Well,I'm not giving up on the band and anyways,I didn't expect the rest of them to click so well with the sec4 snrs.Alhamdulilah,we managed an alright debut.Well,honestly,I've got nothing to update about.Just thght I'd add in a little somethng abt todae.Off to complete my friend's blog.Happy teachers' day!
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
02:57 p.m.

Bantering
Heyyyy.Bored man.Just got back from grocery shopping.I had such a great time yday.I wanna go again!!.I'm really nervous for Wednesday and yes,I've gotten my tuner and a new set of strings thanks to my bro.Yup,so now can tune and no more excuses about the guit being out of tune. LOL.
Haha,had such an awesome time yday both at Keith's and at home,caught up with one of my friends after our recent argument, and its nice to hear him being in a good mood and well,there was practically alot of bantering.
Yesterday's jam was also kinda good,I admit,we sound alright excpt tt Madh needs a serious boost to her confidence and we're unsure of our line-up yet.And not to mention band name.Just one more week of school and if I'm not mistaken its off to the hols,yup.I'm only half looking forward to it.I love sch rmbr?!Hahaha.Like you lot will believe me.Shall be baking brownies tonight.Anyone want some? LOL.Chao now,busy ar.!
Sunday, August 28, 2005
05:17 p.m.

I wish you all the best.
Third Entry for the day man...Woah,am I bored or what? LOL.Think I'll be shooing off after this last entry.Go practise guit.LOL.I read something somewhere that really taught me somethng.Whtr or not tt thing was meant for me,thank you,it somehow made me realise somethng.
I'm glad someone's doing okay in his life now.Its time he appreciated people for being there.I wish him all the best for his exams.Somehow,I realised I've been less worried abt and for him nowadays.I admit I haven't forgotten him,it'll take a long time but I get thru it.For now,may he be happy.
God Bless....
Friday, August 26, 2005
09:51 p.m.

The Strength of Heart
I wrote this out on my own,though parts of it I admit I did get inspiration from elsewhere.To whoever wrote the quotes,god bless you.
LOVE.
People often ask what love really is.The expressions "I'm in love" and "I love you" are so rampant and so commonly heard these days that one will begin to wonder,do people really me what they say.
To me,Love is that motivation we get to wake up every morning and look ahead as a bright new day dawns upon us.
Love is that happiness that engulfs us each time we see the one we love smile.
Love is the radiance and warmth of a summer's day only we see penetrating through every pore and every line of his/her face.
Love is feeling the pain that special one feels.
Love is that burning desire within us to forget but at the same time, to remember.
Love is what dares us to look stupid and not care what the world thinks of us.
Love is the fear of losing what we have cherished all our lives.
Love is giving without expecting to receive.
Love is unconditional.
Ultimately,love is finding that strenght within yourself to let go,even if it means losing your happiness to see him/her happy yet finding the strength to carry on treasuring every moment of your life as if it were your last,keeping forever in remembrance,the time you have spent together.
"Never be sad that its over,be glad that it has happened."
Love is like a tree.
Loving someone deeply means allowing yourself to plant their roots deep and firm within the soil of your heart.If nurtured and cared for,it will grow into something healthy and strong.If you should ever decide to tug and remove the tree,its roots are often so deep and firm,it almost becomes impossible.But should that tree ever die,or the roots forcefully and painfully taken out,your heart will be barren and used,and like 'used' soil,you believe that nothing can ever grow or flourish there again.
"It is not about finding someone you can live with,it is finding someone you can't live without."
You know you love someone if you can see their imperfections,overcome their weaknesses,and understand their flaws yet realise you can't live without them.
That's Truth.
That's Love....
Friday, August 26, 2005
09:18 p.m.

Cut us some slack
Hey all.LOL.I'm so proud of myself.I've gotten the first part of this solo.Hahha.Well,let's see.I haven't been updating in a while cause been kinda busy lately.
My prev entry was kinda short cause I had to rush,but I don't think I wanna elaborate anymore on it.Don't feel like it ar.But you know,moral of the story:DON'T EVER WRITE WHAT YOU DON'T MEAN ON YOUR BLOGS!LOL
My dearest bro bought me an amp,altho I told him initially I didn't want it yet.God Bless him.Having so much fun with the guitar he gave me as well.Haha.I love my bro! *rigghtt*
Well,I'm kinda tired really,had a great dae with my galpals.It was lyk so sports-day.Played volleyball,c.ball,b.ball and god-knows-what-else.
It seems that alot of people are on breaking point.I don't know whtr I should write what I feel here,but really people,you guys make great classmates but sometimes,you have got to cut people some slack.It sucks being criticised and despised directly,furthermore,what I don't understand is why can't you all see the good in them.Everyone of you seem to be blaming him for alot of things and don't give him the credit he deserves.And its not just him who's suffering.Continue with the way you treat other people,soon he's not gonna be the only one who has shouted to ya.And no,it wasn't because of the bloody game,in case you guys aren't astute enough,he's been feeling pissed the whole day.Who won't right?? He does well and does anyone really applaud him?Not many.He works hard and if you guys think you're THAT good,prove it!I don't think he'll be selfish with his applauses.Sometimes,I don't understand you guys,what DO you really have against them? Are they not cool enough?Not conforming enough? Not rebellious enough? Maybe that's what you guys think,but people are the way they are for a reason.If everyone's the same,what's the point of everyone being different? Take everyone's flaws and accept them,noone is perfect.
And another thing,no matter what you guys think,I think we owe a certain teacher an apology..but then again,let's make it unanimous before I do anything.
Friday, August 26, 2005
08:02 p.m.

Thank you
I'm super relieved.Thank you so much aites? I have got to run.Can't use comp right now..I'll continue another time.Chao!
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
09:48 p.m.

sick.
You wanna do well,I wanna help you yet you don't even appreciate it.How are you gonna even gonna pull up ur grades if you simply refuse help?!No wonder people say you're egoistic.Sheesh.Honestly,I don't care whtr or not you read this,cause I've had enough of you.Really.
Okay,that being said and done,I'm officiallyyyyyyyy s-i-c-k.Yup.Rampant infections spreading thru my hse.Blearhs.Well,went out just now with my family,my yger bro got his drumset at an incredible price,I got a new bag and hmm,what else? Nth much really,walked arnd Bugis Village.Then erm,haha,don't know liao lah.Well gtg,so chao people!
Sunday, August 21, 2005
07:13 p.m.

Surrealism
Heys.*yawns* So tired.And my right eye hurts.Must be the rampant eye infections spreading around.Darn it then.
Well,school's out for the week.But like usual,that doesn't mean extra sleeping hours.Haiz,well,this week's been pretty,surreal.I don't know why.Maybe its cost I've been slipping in and out of moods,depression being the most prevalent one.Maybe its PMS,donno lah.It was like so weird,one minute I felt happy,then the next I felt depressed.One minute I felt like I didn't care and the next it felt lyk it meant the world to me.You're probably not getting what I'm saying so no worries.
Its been a hectic week and honestly,I'm glad that its over. I think my Chem and my Maths are down the drain issues.So let's not talk about that.LOL.Well,Lit also I think cause I so didn't have time to finish the paper.We were denied a full TWENTY minutes.Damn the teacher.Hmph!!!
Well,there goes the 3 test for the week,all flopped just like that.NoNo.Let's be optimistic.I think EL survived the massacre I caused this week.Well,like I said,its been a surreal week,and I haven't been myself,its almost like I drifted in between worlds.
So yes,my bro's nagging to use the comp.So I'll have to disappear.Chao!
I just don't get what SOME people have against me.Listen aites,Get a life! L-I-F-E! I didn't make your life miserable,why do you care anyway so f**k off aites?
Friday, August 19, 2005
07:40 p.m.

bye
I hate to think that I'm getting worried for no reason.He better appear soon sey,otherwise..haiz,I don't know what I'll do.
Didn't go to school today.Cause I woke up late and I didn't really feel good after blowing my top last night.IDIOTS!.Sheesh.
Well,I don't know.Moodiness,I suppose.Feeling so melancholic.I miss 2A1 seriously.Currently chatting with YingYan.Brings back loads of memories.I want a reunion!!
I'm in no mood to blog,seriously.So I think I'll disappear for now.Chao!
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
08:18 p.m.

Nice?
Since everyone's been saying how difficult it was to read my entries when I used my last blogskin.Here you go! A new one.Honestly,it looks kinda girlish and stuff but hey, time for a change right?
Well,I think yesterday proved what an acumen person I am.LOL.But let's not go there.Currently having a headache,after a lot of confusion in trying to read tabs and I think a result of playing in the rain with my besties.Haha.
Well,I'm getting irritated by the fact that people make it sound like I'm so darn outdated.YES PEOPLE!I DO KNOW!!.Sheeesh.
Well,gonna transfer songs.Nth much to write abt anyways.Good luck Madh and everyone else!!
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
07:27 p.m.

Me all over again
Heys.Alright,I'm officially okay.hehe.Fast right? I was so depressed on Thursday,but Friday morning was still in depression mode that I lost my mood for PE.Wasted,our class forgo recess and the 2 periods aft recess to entertain the Korean delegates.But I had time for myself to think,and by the end of the school day,my besties cheered me up loads.Actually,yesterday was a good day had it not been for my slight moodiness.At night,had a nice chat with someone I've not talked to for a while,he was super nice too.Thank You loads.
Went out early this morning to the ICA building as mum wanted to renew her re-entry permit,then went on to Suntec where I finally got my VANS shoes.A pity there wasn't much choice,but I love what I got.Then walked around before heading to Plaza Singapura as my younger bro has been dying to go to YAMAHA to look at the drums.Unfortunately,they were kinda expensive so my oldest bro has promised to bring him to Bugis next week where his friend has a shop and the musical instruments are like so much cheaper there.House is still in a big mess as the works are still underway.I hate the construction company we hired.Bad,bad,bad choice but I'd rather not name them here otherwise get accused of slander and defamation.LOL.But its like they keep upping their price due to lame excuses like wrong measurements lah,complicated design lah,must do hacking lah,wood expensive lah,tile finished lah and alot more lame excuses.Sheesh.I swear I won't recommend them to anyone.EVER.
What else eh?Hmm,nothing really.Amazingly,he's been out of mind these days.Maybe I'm falling for someone else.But like what I said yesterday,I'm too busy trying to keep someone out to get someone in.So yup,nothing more to say really,god bless all of ya.Chao!!
Saturday, August 13, 2005
08:18 p.m.

I wish I could say I ain't heartbroken,but that would be lying
Its interesting how you can feel like you're on top of the world one day,and suddenly the next day,it seems like nearly everything you cherished and treasured have fallen down on you.Cause that's the way I feel now.I thought it was a mere liking,never did I expect them to get together.What's better,I've got friends and a godsis who knew the truth but didn't bother breathing a word to me? Let's all face it,the truth will come out sooner or later.Sheesh.
What I found out at recess already cracked my heart but what I just found out sent it crashing onto the floor into a thousand smithereens.Well,as least the girl was sweet,and really,if you're reading this,it is NOT your fault,well,maybe,just maybe,things will come to an end.At least I have gotten one thing cleared,he now has someone he cares for and hopefully,he will start treasuring his life more.
Well,I had initially thght of typing out my prose,but I don't feel like it anymore.Currently,my mind and my heart have big holes and distinct blanks.All I need is something to fill it up,maybe like she said,my happiness is out there,its just a matter of when its gonna come.
Well,like Lan used to tell me,I have other friends who I know will be there for me,especially my besties.I love you girls so much..maybe,its time my life moved on....the question is,HOW DO I GET THE BALL ROLLING?
God Bless The Both Of Them And Everyone Else.Nights all.
P.S I think quite a few of you know what the hell I'm on about,but somehow,I don't think I really care anymore.
Thursday, August 11, 2005
09:25 p.m.

National Day 05
Whooopeeeedo......*hums tunelessly*.haha,I don't mean to brag but I love my life now.Cause..
1)New computer!Which is like so bright,so clear,so fast,so....NEW!I love my bro.(urgh!)
2)New MP3!!! ZEN NEEON!Okay,confess people out there,who's jealous?hmph.=p.
Well,like I said I don't mean to brag,but who ain't estatic.Renovation works on the kitchen start this week and in 3 weeks' time,I'll be baking again.I miss the oven.Cheesecake anyone?
I feel so bubbly.Waiting for time to pass,then go out and meet Madh and Yat and then,erm,oh yea.Go down to see(and be seen) at the Celebrations at Yishun thingy.
So plans for the remainder of the week?
School,like durh.Then Saturday we're going down to make my mum's passport,then after that we're probably going to Yamaha cause my bro wanna get a drumset (I think arh),then probably going down to Suntec as I wanna get the VANS my bro promised me.hehe.So that's something to look forward to right?Anyways,tomorrow's a holiday,so chillin' at home.I've watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory,so deliciously touching.Abt the importance of family and stuff,can't wait to catch The Maid though.
NDP in school was a little on the sucky side.sheesh.Where have all the good revelry and celebs gone to?But we had a good laugh all the same,courtesy of Alwin Ng of 4S3.Love their class tee.
OOps,Madhiah has called.I guess I'll disappear for now.Chao! Happy National Day people!
Tuesday, August 9, 2005
03:06 p.m.

bored.bored.bored.
Didn't really feel like updating till now.Well,I'm back.Again after another long ban,hehe.typical lah ah.
So let's see,what's been up? Nothing much really.Life is tons better with a few exceptions and like it or not,I'm feeling optimistic again.Well,nothing's much been happening really.School is loaded with tests,tests and more tests.Family's situation has improved loads and everything's falling into place.
Hmm,I honestly don't know what to blog about.Two Fridays ago,me and my bestiez were over at Hayati's hse baking.We had an awesome time.Darn fun! And full of chocolate.Hmm,I want somemore cheesecakes.hehe.They were nice.
I've finally finished reading HPB,gotta admit,not as thrilling as I've expected,but like Hermione would put it,"illuminating".You learn alot about the history of the characters and whether or not it was good,I can't wait for the seventh and final instalment.Hmm,what else? There's nth really that I feel like blogging about.Well,since I don't have much to say.I guess I'll disappear...Chao!
Friday, August 5, 2005
08:14 p.m.

OP2005.
I'm back after a week-n-2-days long ban.Well.Let's see.The cause of my ban.OP2005.Well,like I did for Arts Panache last year,I've decided to do a little write-up.Enjoy!
Friday,the 8th of July may have seem just like another normal day to most students.But to the members of the Orchid Park Wind Orchestra,OP'us Alumni Winds and the Joaquim Chorale, it was the day of the much anticipated OP2005.
The morning started like any other school day.The usual lectures,talks,lessons.However,it was announced to the school that tickets for OP05 had been officially sold-out.The sense of excitement of what was to come that night was almost palpable.Nothing,however,could match the anxiety and the emotions felt by the performers themselves.Lessons ended a period earlier and most Co-curricular activities were cancelled,in preparation for the big concert,due to start at 7pm that evening.
Six in the evening and Victoria Concert Hall was already brimming with students of Orchid Park Secondary,who had turned out in full force to support the 'Gold-with-Honours' certified orchestra and the Silver certified choir.After a long wait,the doors of the concert hall were thrown open at 6.45pm.Crowds started filing in and were greeted by the grand sight of the whole orchestra assembled onstage and gearing to perform.
The concert was compered by Ms Magdalene Foo,teacher of Orchid Park Secondary.First up,was the orchestra,helmed by Mr Clarence Tan,an accomplished music director, with their version of Fugue in G minor,"The Little".It was a tribute to its famous composer,Johann Sebastian Bach who celebrates his 320th birth year.This was followed by renditions of the Swan Lake Suite and the Fourth Symphony,by Tschaikovsky and Barnes respectfully.The audience never failed to deliver their generous applauses and cheers despite the fact that many of them had never heard of these classical tunes before.
Next up was the performance by the OP'us Alumni winds and together with the seniors from the orchestra,they brought us back to a time when OPWO was still known as Orchid Park Military Band,struggling with their 'Certificate of Participation' status.With their rendition of With Quiet Courage and Postcards from Singapore,many of those present finally understood the hardwork and determination the orchestra had put in to be where they are today.
After a short interval,it was time for the Joaquim Chorale to strut their stuff.Despite being a Silver certified choir,they did not disappoint with their renditions of numerous tunes.Headed by Mr Gregory Chan,music director of the Chorale and accompanied by Mr Benedict Goh on the piano,the choir got the audience singing and humming along to the melody and rhythem they projected with just the use of their voices.What was to come next was purely unforgettable.
For the first time since the birth of OPWO,the orchestra and band came together,combining harmonious playing and soulful voices and uniting as one with their versions of Mozart's Ave Verum Corpus and the popular theme song of the animated movie,'The Prince of Egypt',When You Believe.Audiences were left mesmerized and knew that what they had just witnessed was a rare exhibit of what miracles could be achieved if people were willing to put aside their differences and work together.
A little display of the wonders of percussion playing was seen when some of the orchestra members came stomping on stage armed bamboo poles and drumsticks.That surprise performance,an excerpt of the world renowned "STOMP!", left the audiences squealing with delight and prepared them for the second half of the wind orchestra's segment.Their 2nd segment opened with their version of the theme of Inuyasha 2:The Castle Beyond the Looking Glass.The audience was further surprised when the orchestra's Drum Major,Mohd. Azlan,picked up his bass guitar and played along with the rest of the orchestra as they belted out a medley of Evergreen70's.What was thought to be the last song of the night,Die Lustige Witwe,was played at 10pm.But the audience's cravings had not been satisfied till they were granted an encore.Everyone stayed to watch and sang along as the orchestra played their encore piece,Sing.
"A huge success!" was what junior orchestra member,Nisa,had to say about her beloved orchestra's spectacular concert.Countless hours of practices determination,hardwork and perspiration had all boiled down to that one enchanting night.Many were left amazed and mesmerized,having just sat through 3hours of what we expect to become one of 2005's best school events.
I would appreciate it loads if you guys can comment on what you think of this article.Thanks!
Sunday, July 17, 2005
05:40 p.m.

Youth Day 2005.
Hey all.Haven't been updating in a while.too darn tired too.besides,nothing's much been going on really.So let's see,last week,Youth Day holiday...I must say.I had one of the best weekends ever.Enjoyed myself a whole lot.Firstly:
Saturday:
Went down early in the morning to Urban Infest.Signed in and got our tees which are like really nice.Got partnered with this pre-U gal who was like ultra nice and sweet and totally fun.Helped a while with the VANS Skate Jam competiton and got asked to go over to Settlers' Cafe's booth.Learnt quite a few games.Had a pretty good time.The boss,Colin,was ultra nice to us.I left earlier than expected,cause honestly,even though I had fun,Urban Infest wasn't really my thing.It was more to HipHop and Street festives which are so not me.Went over to my aunt's neighbour's son's engagement party.Had a great time with my cuzzies as usual.Went home dead beat.
Sunday:
Helped my mum out in the morning and went down to the Rock Fest to support the band from my school.Their performance went alright.There was this band who was like a few performances before their's and their vocalist/bassist was this really young guy.Needless to say,so envious that a guy younger than me could play that well.What was suprising about that band from my school,(Blankpage,if you're wondering),was their rendition of Tipah Tertipu.It was hilarious,at the same time,not that bad.Totally shocked me cause I didn't hear that during their jammin' sessions.sheesh.
Monday:
Was pretty much slacking at home.A good break after two days of exhilarating events.lol.And my ears' condition have officially deteriorated.What do ya expect? Close to 4days of loud music,courtesy of jammin' sessions,dance,urban infest and rock fest.LOL.
Well,tmr's the much anticipated OP2005.Wishing all the best and good luck to all band,choir and OP'us alumni peeps taking part tmr! Don't let us down!
Chao!
Thursday, July 7, 2005
08:42 p.m.

First day back.
Just as I start typing this,another news report comes out saying that yet another teen has drown,this time in the swimming pool of her condo.Pretty girl,very sweet and demure-looking.Condolences to her family.
The news brought back memories of what happened on Saturday.Just 2 days ago,a student was taken away from our midst.Ang Zi Jian.Honestly,I didn't know him but I knew he was also from my primary school as well as my current secondary school.Despite the fact that most of my friends never got to know him,his loss has emphasize the point I've been trying to make for ages."Live life to the fullest.Cherish everyone around you and never take anything for granted." Life is like a rollercoaster,an unpredictable ride of ups and downs.Personally,I've lost someone I've loved as well and my heartfelt condolences goes out to the bereaved family.Hearing about his sudden departure has made me love and cherish all my friends and family more.Whatever happens,they will always mean the world to me.If I never get a chance to say this to everyone last one of you,I love you guys!
The first day back was a total bore with the exception of the normal finger pointing and critizing people with new hairstyles,shoes,skirt lenghts,specs,accessories etc.well,mainly hairstyles.lol.I have hmwrk due tomorrow and it still needs to be done.grr.I'm thinking of changing skins again as I'm kinda sick of this one.I know.Fickle-minded me.Well,hmm,what else.Haha.Heard Blankpage jam just now.Not bad I have to say.So expecting a good performance from them this Sunday.Gotta go peeps.Chao!
Monday, June 27, 2005
08:16 p.m.

Heartbreeaakkkkeerr-Addicted by SP
Gosh.I haven't updated in ages.hehe.Okay.so what was my last entry about huh?(thinks hard)oh well.hehe.
I am sooo looking forward to tomorrow.Finally get time with the clique.A pity though its not the whole clique.Cause some of them couldn't make it.But whatever it is,I'm still gonna have fun.So yup,planning to go ECP to cycle,then play and chill around while we have a picnic.Yup.Our first-ever clique picnic!haha.Pray that everything goes well.
Let's see.I've been pretty much at home these days with the exception of Tuesday.Went over to Cheryl's hse with Pekshia.Supposed to do hmwrk but just hung around chatting and watched half of Monster-in-Law.Its so nice to catch up with them.I love my friends so muchies.lol.
Had a sort of argument yday with a long time friend.I mean,we argue all the time but always reconcile cause we've both taught the other alot of things about each other,about life and stuff and we're always there listening to each other.Yesterday's fight however was kinda different cause firstly,I've been accused of a few things which I swear I wasn't trying to do.How can anyone say I was trying to change them and not allowing him to be who he really is.And accused me of making him feel bad about being himself.When he told me that,I felt awful.I apologised for making him feel bad but he acted as though I didn't have any feelings.Come on,I didn't even mean it.sheesh.I only gave in cause I didn't want him feeling upset again.Seriously,sometimes it doesn't pay to be nice.
So yup,its back to school next week.My hmwrk's doing alright I suppose.I miss school really bad.Especially all my friends.And *ahem ahem*.argh.Okay,I shall not talk about him.Gets on my nerves only.Gotta go now.Won't be updating for a while I suppose.Chao!
P.S.See ya guys back in school!
Thursday, June 23, 2005
07:37 p.m.

Off the top of my head.
Awwh.Promise by Matchbook Romance.I have liked and will always love this song.I don't know.Its just so meaningful.I've been feeling pretty addicted to mellow,slow rock songs.You know,emo.I don't know.I'm feeling rather confused when it comes to matters of the heart.If I could,I'd swear I'll never fall in love again.Or like anyone alot for that matter.Haiz,I don't understand alot of things around me now.Then again,as they always say,Everything Happens For A Reason.
My 3rd and 4th week is like practically plan-less.Hmm,was supposed to go watch a match today but I didn't get any details so yea,wth.I wonder how they did.If they lost,omg,malu man.LOL.Hmm,as for tomorrow,Madhiah has voiced out plans to go out and meet up cause she wants to give us souvenirs.I seriously miss my dear friends.I tell you,I need to get out and hang arnd otherwise I'll die of depression staying at home.Cause for me,when I'm alone,I'll start to think of alot of things,when I think,I'll tend to assume and I usually don't assume the good stuff.As Madh puts it,don't assume-It'll make an ass out of u and me.So yea,but I can't help it can I?
I'm buying band concert tix soon.Anyone else planning to go but have yet to purchase your tix? Hmm,I suddenly feel like I've been promoting OPWO but its undeniable,they're good and they've improved alot.I have always supported them so yea.Besides,why miss the opportunity to watch a Gold With Honours band perform right?haha.and no,I'm not being sarcastic.
Let's see.What else? Oh yea.There's this Urban Infest thing happening on the 2nd of July at the Somerset Area.They're looking for performers and people who wanna participate at the street carnival.Its said to be the biggest youth festival happening so you've gotten come down and check it out.There'll be a mega concert,street carnival,graffiti art wall,flying fox and a range of other activities.So yea,Urban Infest,2nd July,11am-10pm,Somerset Area.
Marina's away on holiday so my home phone's pretty quiet.Blearghs.I can't wait till the 4th week.I think I'll plan a clique meeting to ECP for mass cycling and just to chill out there and I wanna go down to Escape where there's the new Haunted House attraction!Well,I heard some of the guys are going down there,but due to some reasons and mis-organisations,I don't think I'll join them.
So yea,my entry's pretty boring.I know.And not to mention random.I just wrote whatever came to my mind.So yes,if you are fun-loving and like to chill out and planning to go out anytime this week,drop me a message.
Sheesh.How could I forget.I'm sure you guys may have heard of the Straits Times School of Rock contest 2005 and audits begin this Thursday.As a group of my friends[They call themselves Blankpage,but its not the original line-up] are taking part with their audits being this Friday,Good Luck aites? And all the best going out to the other 197 bands taking part!And ppl,if they do happen to make it thru to the semis and finals,come on down to J8 to check it out.Semi-finals are on the 24th of July whereas the Finals are on the 31st of July.Cause these bands really need the support.So yea.(hmm,I'm like promoting alot of things but wth,these are my friends and they mean alot to me.)
Chao!
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
07:00 p.m.

I've updated for the sake of updating.
Hello.Bored sia.I didn't know whtr or not I wanted to update but wth,I'll just update lah.Well,Friday's performance went alright.I love the Grand Hyatt Hotel.Its like so nice.LOL.Okay,that was Friday.Hmm,before I went to dance received a call from Madhiah.It was like soooo nice to talk to her after so long.Didn't go to the Police Week Carnival cause I was too drained after Friday.Besides,who's interested in Taufik?Not me.Okay.I like answered my own question.
Blearghs.I'm bored.Hmm,I have yet to place orders for band tix.Anyone else going?You know.I'm in love with the song The Geeks Get The Girls by American Hi-Fi.I know.That is like super random.
Well,things at home....let's just say they're not on an all time high.Problems.As usual.But then again,my little bro,the one after me,got his Gameboy Advance SP already.His bdae prezzie.The cost,well..you don't wanna know.LOL.Hmm,I think I'll email Madhiah.It was fun emailing her the other time.Besides,whatever I wanna tell her,I don't think I should say over the phone.so yea.I'm outz! (I haven't used "outz" in a LOOONNNGG time.LOL)
Sunday, June 12, 2005
04:27 p.m.

so much for holidays
Hmm.I've been blogging on and off.Been really busy.Was out the entire week last week.Mainly spent time with my cousins at two bbqs.I love bbqs.The recent ones brought back all the memories of last yr's bbq which was like so ultra fun.
My whole body is aching cause of dance but after Friday,it'll be all over.We did this little funk-jazz combo in class just now that was like so super nice.I hope we'll elaborate on it.
So yea,so far my week's been alright.Went out with Huda,Cheryl,Asyhura,Alex on Monday.Walked around P.S. and caught the movie Madagascar.Hilarious.Really!Then wanted to go towning but lost the mood when we reached Orchard's MRT station.So went to Cheryl's house instead and watched The Amityvill Horror.Another great show.Had a great time despite the small group.
Lazed around home on Tuesday,e-mailed Madhiah.Got her reply today.It's great to hear from her.She'll be back soon I hope.
Went to school in the morning to meet Lokman and found him sitting with Fiq and Helmi.Supposed to do hmwrk but never got anything done.Had dance,like I already mentioned and that's that.I don't know what else to blog about besides the fact that I'm feeling ultra bored.Been feeling a little on the melancholic side.Well.I'll guess I'll disapper for now.
Chao!
Wednesday, June 8, 2005
08:09 p.m.

Muddled
I've been updating less frequently these days.Don't know arh,just no mood and nothing to update about.Well,the hols have started.Been going back to school since Monday despite the fact that I'm sick with a fever,flu and coughs.
Let's see,there was a match on Monday which Naz's team won so congrats!.Watched another match on Tuesday whereby Fadly's team won so congrats to them too and to Erwin's team,relax aites?Had dance today so my whole body is aching.We've completed choreography so now its just polishing up that's left.
I'm suddenly addicted to malay sentimental songs,thanks to the guys.So yup,any lagu jiwang recommend kay?
Felt reallie depressed last night after I found out something but honestly,I've sort of lost the will to care too much.I just hope that one day,things will go back to the way they were.Well,I know my entry's pretty jerky and muddled up but this is how I'm feeling.Besides,I'm tired.So yea,I don't think I wanna continue.Chao!
Wednesday, June 1, 2005
07:53 p.m.

B-I-T-C-H
I've gotten back my results and they sucked.BIG TIME.So let's not go there alright?Ask me personally if you wanna know.
So.Dance has resumed and we're performing for a June 10th D&D night.Its Oriental Frangrance Version 3.LOL.Its nicer this time round but its a really small group.Only nine of us.
My life on the other hand has been bitter sweet.Firstly,he's still not replying me.And for the love of God,I don't even know what he has against me.And his friends aren't really helping much.Now,a new dilemma.Everyone's urging me to go talk to him face-to-face.Believe me,if I had the courage,I would.I'm still summoning up that courage to do it.And if I do decide to do it,wish me luck aites?
Another thing,some PEOPLE,who supposedly speak an infinite great deal of nothingness have been trying to find fault with me.As my friend says,you can't stop people from talking but hey,even if you wanna talk,talk facts alright?Don't go around assuming people are bitchy and making cynical remarks about others just cause you don't like that person and the person ain't as low as you are alright?Think what you want,its my life,I have my rights.But before you spread ANYTHING,do your research aites?And if you're accusing me of anything,say it to my face,what's the point of bitching about me behind my back.You've got a problem with me,say it to my face.Gotta go now.Cha0!
Saturday, May 28, 2005
04:37 p.m.

Teratur.......What's up,what's up?
Yo!!Back from camp.Okay,like any other typical sec3-rian,I'll obviously write about the camp.
First day:Met Madh n Huda early in the morning.Haha.Madh was well....funny.Long bus ride from M'sia checkpoint.Reached Kluang at about 1pm.The farm area is H-U-G-E.seriously.There's like horses,cows,monkeys,squirrels and god-knows-what-else.So yea,reached Sri Pandan a while later.First day was pretty boring.Pitched up our tents in the sweltering heat.Went for night walk after dinner.Kinda eerie but luckily we walked in tribes but after that the instructors were like freaking us out by saying they smelled a stench around the area,the smell of a rotting corpse and stuff.Somemore it was a Thursday night,and Alex was like purposely freaking us out.Managed to catch a little sleep that night.
Second day:Did canoeing in the earlier part of the day.Damn fun.Paired up with Allen.I wanna go canoe again!!!Got wet thanks to my tribemates and Mr Yeo and Mr Harish.But on the whole,really fun and it brought our tribe,Teratur,closer together.After lunch,[which we ate in our wet clothing]we went for rafting.Alex helped our group though he wasn't supposed to but mid-way,after all the tricky knot-tying and stuff,it started to pour really heavily.We had to run back from the pond all the way till Sri Pandan.The guys were really something.Some of them took off their shirts and offered it to the girls to cover ourselves as some of us made the mistake of wearing white.[come on,you know what happens when white clothes get soaked]So just hung around Sri Pandan listening to Siang Ann sing,discussing our campfire skit and stuff like that.After dinner,had a great time putting together our skit with Siang Ann in-charge and me and Huda co-producing and co-directing parts of it.Managed sleep that night.
Third day:Went for the Lost Pendants thing in the morning,an activity involving basic navigation skills.Teratur 1 finished first.[of course lah!].After lunch,made our way to Gng Lambak.Sang and crapped in the bus,lots of fun.When we reached e place,we felt drops of yellow liquid drip on us.[still wondering what it was]Climbed all the way to the midpoint when it started to rain.I continued after the midpoint but all 32 of us didn't manage to reach the summit due to time constraint.[it was only 200m away!!!]Going down was fun.LOL.Ask Siang Ann and Natrisha.Hehe.Had campfire at night.Our skit was like ultra nice and cool and totally original.Had a good campfire I suppose.Got into a spot of trouble at night so woke up early to do area cleaning the next morning.
Last day:Woke up,did area cleaning with the rest of the girls and went for the Jungle Survival activity.Alright lah I supposed,we managed to get a ultra small flame going but Kumar didn't count it.So sheesh.Packed our tents,ate lunch,closed camp.
So yea.That's been my 3 and a half days away from home.The toilet condition by the 2nd day was revolting.It looked like a wasps/flies/bees/insects infested nest.And it started to flood.The sinks were full of disgusting creepy crawlies.Nights were the worse with all those.."wasps" I shall call them..flying around,into your food and hair and well..other parts.The tall lovegrass was total hell.The food was alright and the sleeping quarters were not that bad.It was shivering cold in the mornings.All in all,the camp wasn't that bad.I learnt how far I could go and pushed myself.I'm proud of my choice to continue scaling G.Lambak after the midpoint cause I really felt like giving up.Teratur began to rock after the first day.I guess the enthusiasm was infectious.I'm gonna miss the activites,especially canoeing and our beloved instructors like Dean[who always ensured we got the best],Adrian[FEVER!]and Lena[the ever-so-sweet one].Well.Gotta go now.Really drained.
Cha0!
P.S.TERATUR RAWKS!
Sunday, May 22, 2005
08:38 p.m.

Argh.
Hey all.been a while since I last updated.Let's see.Exams have been alright so far.I seriously don't feel like going into details so who cares aites?
Spamming has just resurfaced.I have learnt my lesson from what happened last year.moral of the story:use your name when you're tagging.So yea,cause of somebody,suddenly everyone's on bad terms with everybody.I'm not making much sense.I know.And now,someone closer to me seems to be taking an "interest" so to speak in her.But actually,I hate all the emnity,but can't be helped.If you critizise Marina,you're gonna get it not just from me,but all of her friends as well.I'm willing to bury the hatchet if you want to.I'd rather things are the way they were before.I don't hate anyone,and don't want to.
Shit!!!!!!! Why is he calling again?!?!?!?!?!??!?!
Gonna chao!
Bye!
Monday, May 16, 2005
07:47 p.m.

We've grown.........apart.
Hmm.I haven't updated in a while it seems.Well,yesterdae we had our chemistry paper.Surprisingly,it was easier than expected.I'm wishing for a pass but the best would be a distinction of cause.I didn't really study ultra hard for my chem paper,so I'll have to make up for it with my Physics paper.Oh well.I definitely prefer physics to chem at times.Went home straight after paper yesterday.Something I don't normally do.But yea.But went out with someone later in the afternoon.I'm not gonna bother about elaborate details.
Today,SS and Maths paper,both easier than expected as well.However,I think I didn't do the SS paper justice.And I'll be over the moon if I manage a pass for my maths.hehehe.This time,I don't have high expectations for myself.I just think that the exams came too fast,too soon.
Well,you know something.I miss talking to my best friend/s.I really think the four of us have drifted apart.And believe me,I don't think its the exams.I guess the four of us were never meant to be together in the first place.We've fought,argued,quarrelled countless times and to me,nothing is really the way it was.We've grown so distant.Its like we don't know what's going on in the lives of the other.sighs~.I think its just the way things are meant to be.Its not like we're totally split,but foursome has become twosome in my eyes.And no,its not anybody's fault.Things happen for a reason.Maybe years from now,when we look back,we'll understand.sighs~someday.....we'll know.
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
05:14 p.m.

I think I should shut up now.
I think my tears have just 'refilled' themselves up.I haven't cried since last last Sunday when my dad passed away.And I started crying again 2days ago and today.And what's weirder,it has nothing to do with my father's demise.2days ago,I cried cause of the 'things' that have been happening between me and someone.I mean not like really really cry,just tears suddenly started falling down.I don't know.If things are gonna be solved,I think the only way is if he is willing to talk.As far as I know,he now has like all the wrong impressions of me.He probably hates me now.Sighs~.
Well,as for today,I thought I could live with him ignoring me.And right now,I feel like I've just lost the one person who listens to me.Well,I'm SORRY if I happen to talk about the same people/things/subjects,but let's all face it.Don't tell me you've never gone on and on and on about the same stuff also.Each thing you're excited about you tell me and you repeat it at least twice.You think I never get sick of it?Well,FYI.I do too.But what's a friend there for if not to listen?Why do you think I've never said a word?I thought you understood what I'm going thru.What I could really use is someone who bothers listening to me.I don't mind if you just say,"oh okay" all the way.At least I know you're still there and I know you're still listening.I'm thankful just for your presence.But when I see you and them laughing your heart out and I'm sitting there with someone who I barely like,you think I don't feel a thing? You know how insecure I can get about that person,that like someday she'll replace me.However,I think you girls get along with her better.I don't mean any offence to her nor am I saying you shouldn't mix with her,but...well you should know how I feel.I know,I don't laugh at all your jokes,I don't laugh at every silly thing you girls do and I don't seem to be as 'mad' as you girls are.But I'm sorry alright? It's just me.If I don't find something funny,I don't see the point of laughing at it.Why should I?It isn't me.Go on ahead with whatever you girls are doing,don't worry about me cause if you're happier with her,I don't care.I don't have the right to stop you.
As for the whole 'paying attention' thing,well,I'm SORRY I didn't tell the whole world she pays attention.Maybe we should make it public next time?Yes.yes.Cause apparently someone gets offended if I don't give her credit.But think about it,the people I mentioned are sitting like directly next to me and diagonal of me.The guy infront of me pays attention.But I didn't say his name as well.I don't see him getting pissed.Are you like expecting me to name every single person who pays attention.You're like a distance from me and if you pay attention,obviously it shows right?You don't need to have people mention it right?And now you're getting pissed cause of that.Like I said,I'm sorry.S-O-R-R-Y.enough?.
Well go on,look for new friends cause I don't mind.I still have the rest of the clique.But....I can't deny this,now I've realised how irritating I am.Therefore,I shan't pour out my troubles to anyone anymore cause apparently noone's interested.Let me just bottle everything up.Who knows? Maybe one day,I'll go insane.That would be nice.I need not worry about anything or anyone anymore.Cause I won't be mentally sound.
Well,my 'optical taps' are running again.And before my eyes hurt tomorrow,I think I'll stop now.I'll just cry even more.First him,now you.I know,I deserve it right?
Friday, May 6, 2005
07:50 p.m.

Thank You.
Hey all.I'm back.Well,life's picking up again.I've been busy these days,catching up on my studies,my social life,settling family issues and well,basically,trying hard to settle down.
2 days ago marked the 7th day since my dad's demise.We had a kenduri,whereby the tahlil was held.Thanks so much to those of my friends who turned up.Well,so far so good.We're coping alright.
The next part of this entry is going out to everyone I know.
Well,first and foremost,to my bestest friend,Madhiah,for being there right from the time my dad got hospitalised till the time he passed away and till the recent kenduri.Thanks for all your prayers,your patience to listen to me and of course,your handphone,which everyone messaged to convey their regards to me.Thank you sooo soo much.God willing,I will never forget you.
Next,to my other two galpals,Hayati and Huda.Like Madhiah,thank you so much for standing by me each time my world was turned upside down,for understanding,for the advices,the well-wishes and the prayers.The three of you have definitely made a huge impact on my life.
This next person deserves alot of mention from me,cause partly I've never revealed his name despite the endless company and advices he has given me throughout a span of about 2years.And since I have sought his permission,well,a big thank you going out to my online friend,Azlan.Thanks for all the advices,the company,the listening ear,helping me understand myself better,being patient with me despite the irritating person I am and basically being there for me when I need someone to talk to.Keep my advice in mind and good luck for your MYE.
Well,thank you also to everyone who took the time and effort to drop by my house.The first day:Madh,Huda,Hayati,Ms Kaur,Ms Tan,Erwin,YuQian,Michelle,Madhiah's mum,Huda's mum.The next day:Hayati,Huda,Asyhura,Fadly,Royston,Aishah,Adelia,Hafizah and Safarina.And finally,the 7th day kenduri:Farah,Nadia,Huda,Hayati,Madhiah,Munirah,Natasha, Fadly,Suhaimi,Syahril,Lokman,Othman,Nazmi,Syaiful,Fareez, Adly,Daniel,Asyraf,Azry and Rizki.I had a nice time on Saturday.
And lastly,an enourmous thank you to the staff and students of Orchid Park Sec for your donations and condolences.I'll never forget the school.
God bless everyone last one of you.And good luck for your MYE.
P.S How can I forget.Shafiq and Suhana,who willingly offered me their ears and company and definitely cheered me up.
Cha0!
Monday, May 2, 2005
06:51 p.m.

A tribute to my late father:Amari bin Kenan:Husband.Father.Friend.
This morning I lost one of the people I loved most in my life.My father.I think I'm still in this state of shock and numbness,the truth hasn't sunken in.Sighs.The harsh reality of it all.
I didn't sleep till about 1.30am last night.The journey of my father's last few days went like this:He had been having a high fever for close to two weeks.Temperature frequently flunctuated.Just last week,I accompanied him to the clinic.He got jabs and was suspected of having dengue.Tests proved otherwise.He went to the doctor a total of three times and had 2 separate bloodtests.On Thursday afternoon,he couldn't take the fever anymore and decided to go to TTSH to get checked-up.Doctors discovered that the salt level in his blood was too low and warded him for further observations.He was still energetic on Thursday;he could still walk,eat and even talk.He told me not to go to school the following day as he wanted me to go pay the utility bills.I never even thought it was one of the last things he would ever get me to do.
Friday:We visited him at about 12noon.He was eating,talking but needed help walking.Otherwise he was still alright.Temperature hadn't gone down yet,but he was still alright.Alright.We left him that night sleeping.He had started on oxygen cause he couldn't breathe freely.
Saturday:Things took a turn for the worse.I went to his workplace in the morning,his last request of me.I collected his pay and we made our way to the hospital later.He didn't want to eat cause he said the hospital food tasted kinda blant and requested that we bring salt and sugar the following day.He never made it.By then,the doctors had diagnosed his condition as pneumonia.At roughly 3pm,he started to have even more difficulties breathing and was soon using the oxygen mask.An hour or so passed,he had blanked out and was having hallucinations.He stopped responding to us.His blood pressure had dropped to drastic levels.Doctors decided that they had to clear his lungs and he was transferred to ICU.We only went home at 8pm,after being assured that his breathing was nearly steady and that his blood pressure had returned to normal.My bros stayed around till about 11plus.They told us his condition had improved,but there was a chance that he might suffer a stroke and as his conditions were bad,there was only a 50-50 chance of survival.
Sunday:We were woken up at about 5am by the doctors.My dad was in critical condition and the doctors told us to be prepared for the worse.His blood pressure had dropped drastically.At about 5.30am,he suffered a major heart attack.His heart had stopped.Doctors tried to resuscitate him for about half an hour and told us that he was nearly gone but they were gonna try for about 10 more mins.It was pointless.We were told to say our goodbyes.By 6.08am,I had lost the one man I looked up to.
My father had always been an active and lively person.Full of joy and enthusiasm for whatever he did.As a father,I can't say he made the best dad in the world,but he started in me this spark and passion for the English language and made me interested in History and finding out about the things around me.He always got me what I wanted and brought me wherever I wanted to go.He never let his weak heart and health problems pull him down.He liked taking us out to carrides whereby we would travel around Singapore,looking up historical places,finding the best hawker center fare or just to see Singapore in a new light.He used to bring us to the beach every week.He knew we loved it.Although my family is financially strapped,he always made sure that we had enough to eat and that we never felt poor.He tried hard to give us a good life.He seldomly raised his voice at us and tried hard not to use violence to discipline us.He always understood.
As a friend,my dad was always nice to his colleagues and friends.He listened patiently and helped whenever and wherever he could.He never told people off.Well-loved and amiable,my dad was my role model for who I am today.He thought me perseverance and to work hard for what we wanted.
Thus,I would like to say a big thank you to those who dropped by my house today,the endless stream of people offering their condolences,the friends who have been with me right from the start,the staff of TTSH for their care and service and the people who have made a difference in the life of my late father.Forgive him for his sins and whatever wrongdoings he has committed.I've said this once,I shall say it again.Never take for granted the people you love,they may leave you in just a blink of the eye.Tell everyone how much they mean to you and assure them of your love.My father left my mother a widow,five children[two of whom are very young],and his life problems hanging.He was just 52.Life for us shall never return to what it was.Let's just hope we all pull ourselves out of this together,saving what is left of a close-knit family.May his soul rest in peace.
Sunday, April 24, 2005
07:55 p.m.

*yawns*
Heys.Okay.I didn't go to school again on Friday.Not cause I was sick but cause my dad was admitted to the hosp.I really don't feel like doing the details.So I'll won't.Been spending majority of my time and the hospital.And today,daddy's condition kinda worsen.Got transferred to ICU.Do pray for him won't you guys?
My life's currently in one big mess.I left my social life in shambles when I took a break from school.I've decided to take drastic action.I'm gonna let go something I've worked at for close to 2years.I hate to do it.But honestly,I can't take it anymore.I've been betrayed and taken advantage of.Plus,that someone is a cheat,lier,fraud,playboy and I don't know what else.I'd rather go back to us being aquaintances.
Yea,he officially hates me.*sobs*All thanks to the darn stuff that has been spreading like bushfires in school.He probably thinks I started it and that I enjoy it.Well,if you ever read this[which I highly doubt]I'm really really sorry.
I can't believe he has to do this to me at a time when I need him the most.
Well,I'm kinda tired.
Cha0!
Saturday, April 23, 2005
10:02 p.m.

My boring day at home
Okay.Well,I didn't go to school today.It all started with yesterday afternoon.During the course thing,I sort of fell sick.Temperature suddenly shot up.When to Khatib McD with Farahzyan,Salwa and Huda after the course.Crapped and exchanged stories for a while.Then when I reached home,had a short nap.Woke up at 9.30pm to watch this Flop Poppy Konsert Solo.Went back to sleep at about 11pm.Then I was awoken by the blaring TV set at 1.30am.After that,I couldn't sleep at all.I stared at the ceiling till 5am.By then,my headache was spilting my head in two and my temperature had reached fever-pitch heights.I was like arguing with myself whether or not I should go to school.Eventually,I thought I had better not.Just as I was about to doze off at about 5.30am.World War III broke out at home.And honestly,I've never heard my mum shout at anyone like that before.Oh well,its not her fault.
My day at home was dead boring.I should have gone to school.sheesh.oh well.
According to my lovable pals,I didn't miss much.so no worries there.As for what I'm doing now,I'm blogging.Like durh.I feel much better now.My eyes are still drying from my short crying session just now.Thanks to Madhiah and this other person for being there for me.[I don't think he'll like me to mention his name].Appreciate it loads.Well.gotta go.
Cha0!
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
07:54 p.m.

Blasted headache!
Now that SYF is over,I can blog more frequently.Well,let's see.First my day.Hmmm,skewl in the morning.That SYF annoucement made me feel so embarrassed.Oh well.PE was a real killer.We did circuit training.Then jogged outside school.Great training though.Just no forewarning.Then skipped Math cause I 'baby-sat' Hayati and Alex who were having gastric pains.English is dead boring as usual.I'm beginning to dread it.Seriously.
Then recess.Again nothing much.The usual crapping,pinched Erwin like mad,[sorry.its your fault anyway]yadayadayada.Lessons as usual.[I really regret not cramming for Phy.Could have done loads better.]Mrs Bala was pissed with us during Lit.But oh well,that's another story.
After school,did my EL test.Okay,not test.There were like sooo many distractions.First Khudsairi and his weird jokes,then came Adly[You're dead meat!]and his motley crew.[okay.I so don't mean that],until Ms Soh came and we HAD to do our work.BaoXin had been daydreaming all this while.LOL.Went home in the rain with Madhiah and due to that I now have a splitting headache.
Currently,I feel murderous.So yes,thanks to my excellent methods of research [ahem!] I have....[drumrolls]UNCOVERED THE TRUTH!.You're probably rolling your eyes and going "r-i-g-h-t".Right?Oh well,lend me a few moments of BHB-ing.[otherwise known as Shiok Sendiri].
Everyone in my household seems to be falling sick,inclusive of me,myself and I.
I gotta go now.
Toodles!
P.S You're probably wondering why the different salutation.But w.t.h.
Cha0!
Monday, April 18, 2005
07:52 p.m.

I'm addicted to The Da Vinci Code
Hey all.Okay.First and foremost.Congratulations to OPWO!!!! You guys really made the school proud.I'll be behind you all the way.C.O.P to Gold with Honours.History has been made.When I found out the results on Monday night,I was so shocked.Totally unexpected.But yes,they deserved it.
Had Dance on Tuesday.Nothing much really.Just run thru's.
Wednesday was D-Day for us.It went alright.I'm too lazy to go into intricate details.
Thursday.Stayed around in school to watch a soccer match.Really funny thou.Had a good time hanging arnd with Marina.
Yesterday,had to complete Lit.Then went to e bank with Madh n Moon.Then came back to sch.I got our SYF results.Ask me if ya wannna know alright?.We,that is,me,Madh,Cher and Moon had an awful good laugh.Felt giddy and everyting.Really cheered me up.We sort of 'ran' from school to avoid questioning frm certain peeps.At night,I went online to spread the news to the other dance girls.I ended up talking with these 3 guys from band.They were really sweet and nice about it.Thanks alot guys.Well,the irony is,when they were so nice and apologetic and trying to console me,they made me cry.But whatever it is,I was grateful for them being there.
Well,next week onwards,I hope life goes back to being smoothsailing.Been really stressed lately.Now that it's all over,I can relax.But then again,must start cramming for my MidYears.Cause I've pretty much neglected my studies these days.
Well,on the whole,life's been pretty good.As for the results,I know that each and everyone had put their heart and soul into it.It's alright okay?.I feel pretty good to be back on good terms with a few people.Thou currently,someone is really getting on my nerves.oh well.It's his problem.And it ain't got nothing to do with me.
Well gotta go.Thanks to everyone who has supported dance and who has wished us well.Special thanks to my buddies who are in band;thanks for everything,from the well wishes to the congrats I get.Keep up the good work!
Cha0!
P.S Madhiah has a new love interest.LOL.F*r**z.hehe.Go to her blog for more info.
Saturday, April 16, 2005
02:48 p.m.

THREE days to SYF
Hey all.Okay.SYF is three days away.I'm like super nervous.Well,I've just been thru Friendster.And I found this "OPSS Haters" acc.Got me rather infuriated.I mean its like,you wanna dye your hair huh? Do you know that certain dyes can permanently damage your hair?And what's the point of it?To look good?To impress girls/guys?Please lah.School is school.You'll have time for that when you're older right?I mean,by wanting to dye your hair,you're explicitly saying that you have no self-confidence and that you want people to judge you based on your looks.I mean,you won't die if your hair ain't tinted right?Bear with it for a few years.And the whole thing about earpiercing/sticks/mutiple ear studs.I have nothing against multiple piercings.But again,school is school.Why parade the fact that you are 'daring' or 'cool' enough to get your ears pierced?Pur-lease,no one gives a damn honestly.You can always do that when you get out of school.And abt hps in skewls,would you rather not bring your hp and keep it safe at home or would you rather get it stolen? If you bring it,you're blatantly telling people "HEY!My phone's there to be taken.Anyone care to steal?" right? And yea,if you desperately wanna hang out at fastfood chains or malls,bring your own tee lah.It's the truth anyway.By going to public places in school u,you risk being involve in gangs etc.I mean its like,those who are against the school/the staff and whatsoever are people who go against the rule?Why are you people desperate to be cool? In school,just conform.Its a mere 7hrs per day.That leaves 24-7=17hrs to be cool.okay,minus 7hrs for sleep.There's still 10hrs and even the weekends right?You people desperately have to realise that being cool is not based on appearance.Everyone's cool in their own right.Its just how they carry that aura of coolness.At the end of the day,school becomes your 2nd home,it becomes a place where you meet the people whom matter the most to you,you meet people you love,hate and you'll get memories of the place.Without the school,would there be CCAs?Would there still be your friends?Would there be those teachers whom we all love?Would there be those lifelong lessons we learn?[and I don't mean academically]A big part of your life would be missing.If you hate the school,you're welcome by all means to transfer out.The school doesn't need you.
I'm no shoe-polisher.This is how I sincerely feel.I like the school alot.I have fond memories of it.Eventually,all of us will.So please people,cut the school some slack will ya?
Cha0!
Sunday, April 10, 2005
07:18 p.m.

I'm falling into memories of you,the things we used to do.
Okkkayyy.Been really busy lately.Speech Day was a blast!.It was a hell lot of fun and laughter.Great job guys!!.
So yea.My week's been pretty relaxed in a way.Had dance on Monday and Tuesday.Went to make my IC on Wednesday and now,its a Thursday and I was kinda free after school.
SYF is like in 6days.SIX days mind you.I'm so nervous.We gotta put in hard work.Its the final SIX days.Our effort is gonna make or break us.Get that gold!
Well,I've been surfing arnd and checking out the prices of chalet rental rates.We can burn $200++ in one night.What more 2 nights? We're bound to spend about $500++.Scary just to think of it.I've been missing alot of things lately.I miss 2a1 '04.I miss the good times we spent together.I miss our Lit prodn.I miss my primary school buddies.I miss CSSP camp.I miss the unity and class spirit.I miss the 2a1 BBQ.I miss that Escape outing.I miss Hari Raya '04.I miss the CNY PGL prodn.I miss Speech Day drama rehearsals.I miss him.[durh]I miss my cousins.I miss my carefree days in sec1 and sec2.I miss having that someone as a friend.I miss talking to him.I miss that Act Drama Retreat.I miss.....I miss....oh forget it.What good will it do?As Madh says it,we've got to move on and keep hoping that there'll be better things to come.I've been rather pessimistic these days.Especially when it comes to him.I find that I just can't be optimistic when it comes to him.He makes me worry too much.I wish someday,he'll read all this and realise how much he means to me.sighs.
I'm getting more emotional and sentimental by the day.Can't help it can I?
I've just been reading Madh's blog.Very thought-provoking."If u were ever to feel unloved, you should love yourself."How true.And Madh,we all love you okay?hehe.hmm,I'm thinking of him alot these days.Love or Like.I learnt this 'phrase' a few days back."You know you love that someone once you can see their flaws,understand their weaknesses,overlook their imperfections,and still realise that you can't live without them."So,does that mean what I think it means? Help me out here people,I've never been in love or anything close to it.How am I supposed to know what true love feel likes? Right?Right?.LOL.I'm starting to sound weird.Oh well.
I guess I gotta go now.I feel melancholic.And I don't know why.Oh well.Wish us luck for SYF.
Cha0!
Thursday, April 7, 2005
08:03 p.m.

Wish me luck for tomorrow!
hey all.okay.been a busy week.really fast too.passed by in a flash.hmm.Been having loads of SYF and Speech Day practices.More to Speech Day though.I've been missing full classes for dance.Thursday was really fun and funny.The guys in makeup looked really pretty.Note:P-R-E-T-T-Y.not handsome.LOL.And their wigs were dropdead hilarious.esp our 2 guards.and clerk.RETRO!!!and very Mods-like.And Portia looked like Scooby Doo's Velma.[minus the thick-rimmed glasses].Full dress rehearsals started at around 6plus.Btw,I liked band's costume.haha.damn cute.like bibs.okok.no offence.hehe.take that as a compliment aites?LOL.Finished at about 7.Ate with the cast what was supposed to be dinner at 4pm.haha.obviously didn't taste VERY nice right?.my dad picked me up.
That night,I sms-ed him again.believe it or not,he replied!!!I was so damn happy.after like so long.and after I've worried so much about him being angry with me.yea.didn't see him the entire day today.darn it.*misses him alot*.oh well.tomorrow's Speech Day.nervous.
I got a glass and keychain from Huda and this really nice-to-touch monkey from royston.2 glasses and a cat thing from Madh and chocolates from Hayati.hehe.thanx y'all.oh.and I got Simple Plan's Still Not Getting Any...tour edition album from my bro.haha.after so long.but its unfair.My bro got a pair of DAMN NICE sneeks for his birthday that I can bet cost a bomb.so unfair.sheesh.haiz~bersyukurlah.btw,I love Simple Plan!.LOL
Let's see.what else.oh yea.I've been crying an awful lot this week.Been pretty stressed.On a brighter note,I've cleared lots of worries.Its like everyone whom I've argued with are back on talking terms with me.thrilled.including him of course.*yawns*I'm sleeping early today arh.I'm really tired.Must be fresh for tomorrow.Btw,anyone wanna accompany me for lunch?hehe.
Cha0!
Friday, April 1, 2005
07:00 p.m.

Good Luck people!!
*yawns*.man,am I tired.okay,summary.went to Geylang last night.walked for a long time.my feet hurt.reminds me of Hari Raya '04.memories.haiz.
Just now,went to Madh's hse to do hmwrk.Did very little,then we went cycling.fun arh basically.3 of us.a pity Huda couldn't make it.
So yup,its back to school tomorrow.You know,I'm sort of looking forward to school next week,seriously!hahha.okay,let's start this week on a positive note.lol.I'm feeling so refreshed and ready for school.Alot of differences have been solved.so yup,I'm definitely feeling brighter.Plus,speech day is this coming Saturday and SYF is 2weeks away.So that's like 2weeks more,and I'll get my life back.Ain't that a bargain?
*yawns again*My bottom hurts.really.so yup,I gotta run now.I won't be back till Sunday I presume.So yea,wishing the very best to everyone taking part in SYF 2005.Including OPWO,Joaquim Chorale,OPSS Drama Club and of course,OPSS Dance and Movement[Undivided Spirit]May all of us bring back something for the school!
Cha0!
Sunday, March 27, 2005
07:34 p.m.

SYF and Speech Day don't go together
Hey ya.Okay.Been really busy to update.summary of my week.
Monday:well,after school I was asked to play the Duke by Mrs Bala for the Speech Day[S.D]play.So I tried it out,in a way it was pretty much confirmed for tt day.Then at 4pm,I found out that we'll be going to a costume shop for costume fitting till 8pm.I was like "WHAT?!".I had absolutely no idea.but yea,we went to No.1 Costume Costume.Really fun.The shop is totally cool.I wanna get back there.there was like a lot of different costumes,masks,accesories,wigs and other what-have-yous.ultra fun.Came back to school at about 8.35pm.Then we went to have dinner and came home.Got a great telling off.sheesh.
Tuesday:I lost the mood to play the Duke and I did really badly.Then I was casted as Gratiano,but Mrs Bala thght the role was rather redundant and thus,I am officially the narrator.hahaha.Went for dance after that.Dance was as usual,tiring.
Wednesday:went solely for dance as I wasn't required for the S.D rehearsal.
Thursday:well,thanx for all the wishes and stuff.really appreciate it.so yea,it was a good day all in all.Had S.D rehearsals,so skipped tt personality course thing.Fun lah.Syaiful got sabo-ed by me.and he pulled Nazmi along.hahaha.that night,waited for bro to come home before I could cut the cake.and yea,got awaken early this morning by my lil bro.So currently abit sleepy.
My entry's kinda slipshot.I don't know what to write about,alot has happened and I don't feel like putting down every single thing.shucks.
I wished for 2 things last night.Happiness always for my family and friends and that one day,that someone will change for the better.
I got back my results yesterday.ALright I supposed.Especially my EL,82%.a definite A1.3 other distinctions(A2 distinctions for science(1st time),combined humans,d&t)B4 in Mly,C5 in Lit[I'm aiming for distinction for this one]and I flunked my maths.darn!sighs.All in all,okay la.Only my first term,I hope to do better.Been online for a while.so gotta go.
Cha0!
Friday, March 25, 2005
05:06 p.m.

It's about time
Oh god.I seriously don't believe this.If you've been irritated by me from the start,why didn't you just tell me?Why do you have to do this now?I'm feeling confused and not on good terms with a few other people and now,you have to do this to me.Seriously,you think you're the only one around here who has feelings and can get hurt? Hello!reality check.Tell me,what did I ever do to you?Regardless of the number of times,you've made me angry,I've always forgiven you.I've always listened to you each time you tell me you have problems.WHY? Cause of the very fact that you're a friend.My friends mean alot to me,regardless of how close or how distant they are.You very very seldomly listen to me,always telling me that you "have much bigger things to handle".I've always tolerated this,telling myself that other people have their own problems.How many times have we argued or quarrelled with each other?And how of those times is it actually your fault but I've always apologised?? I've tolerated and forgiven you time and again and this is how you repay me? You can't even be bothered to listen to me explain things.If its my fault,I'll apologise.I admit to my mistakes.But tell me,have you EVER done that? My tolerance has a limit.Its time you do a little self-reflection.Have you been a good friend? Not just to me,but to a whole lot of people.Do you even have a conscience in that supersize ego of yours???I hope you do.I've known you for a while now.You do have your good points,I'll admit.But then again,it is enough to redeem yourself?Btw,FYI I'm not the only person who thinks you need a serious attitude readjustment.
P.S. This post is directed to a particular somebody.[my friends should know].I've discovered that by writitng everything out is the best way for me to vent my frustrations and write what I think.I sincerely hope that the person whom should read this does read this.And to everyone else,have a good term.
Cha0!
Sunday, March 20, 2005
04:11 p.m.

Whatever it takes,I will be right here waiting for you.
I took an awfully long time to decide whtr or not I wanted to update.Cause honestly,nothing's much been up.okay.let's see.
I can't believe I missed the 17th March band concert!!!!!!And everyone's going like how good it is.*sobs*.I'm regretting it so much.So to my friends who are in band,next time there's a concert,FORCE ME TO GO.hehe.
Yesterday,had dance.after I finished dance.waited for Natasha to finish her Science wkshop.Then went home with her and Adly.It was soo dead quiet.I was the only one talking.I can't believe it.sheesh.When we reached her block,could still find time to chat under her block with Adly.I think we stood there for about half an hour at least.ahahha.
Walked home from the MRT station area.Quite fast I suppose.Reached home at about 6.30pm.hehe.went out to that Khatib Pasar Mlm.Nothing much really there.hmm.what else?see I told you I have nothing much to write about really.
So yea.school's starting the day after tomorrow.My hmwrk's not even half done.I'm soo toast.WTH.I always do this.well.in general,life's been alright I suppose.Me and a certain someone aren't really on good terms.No,no.actually 2 someones.Like Madh says,"they have egos the size of the universe".who's to argue?It's true.to me at least.I'm not even at fault.I've apologised.I've messaged them but if they're not gonna accept my apology,there's nothing I can do about it right?Let's wait till school starts and we'll see.
I miss him.You know something,I'm kinda sick and tired of worrying about him and what may happen to him.I know anything can happen to anyone,but the fact that he likes living his life the way it is,there's this added risk and a higher chance of him getting into trouble and other what-have-yous.I wish I hadn't fallen for him to begin with.but then,what can I do.I don't like being worried about people,but I can't help it can I? omg.
Next week's pretty hectic.As usual.What's new right? Let's see,Monday I have that Learning Journey,we're supposed to be going City Hall MRT stn.Supposedly to learn about how the transportation industry has evolved and yadayadayada.Lame right?sheesh.Tuesday,I have dance.Wednesday,dance.Thursday,we have that personality profiling course thing.and Friday,dance.There you go,the whole week taken up.So I guess I'll not be updating at all next week especially during weekdays.too bad.
I can't wait for SYF to be over and done with.I miss my old days,when we used to have dance only once a week,twice at most.Plus with Speech Day coming up and I'll probably be involved,there goes my life.Lost in a whirlwind of activities.I miss hanging out after school with the clique.I miss...well,I miss a hell lot of things.I hate holidays.But I need them too.I can't wait for the end-year hols.Really!.They're usually fun.Well,why don't we plan something for the June hols aites?.That way,I'll look forward to it.
blearhs.I've fallen in love with the songs,Right Here Waiting by Richard Marx and One Year,Six Months by Yellowcard.I want Simple Plan's Still Not Getting Any..Tour Edition.Will any kind soul geddit for me?My bdae's in a few days time.I know,I'm so thick-skinned.hehehe.well.gotta go.been online for a while.All the radiation will result in innumerable pimples.but.wadeva.
Cha0!
Saturday, March 19, 2005
05:42 p.m.

One more week.
sheesh.I can't stand not updating.cause I get real bored.hehe.so yes,if any of you are looking for that entry,it is now the 2nd latest entry.[just below]
Well,thanx to everyone,whtr they're in band or dance for taking time to read the entry and to tell me what they think.I appreciate all the compliments and everything else.I intended to not update but as the person who should read it isn't gonna be bothered too,I might as well just keep updating right?
So yes,been going back to school pretty often for dance.too bad,SYF.Had history lesson this morning.believe it or not,I woke up at 7.30am when the class is supposed to start at 8am.I can't believe I actually rushed.sheesh.There were so many people who were even later.
After class,I hung arnd in school for a while,believe it or not,ALONE.sheesh.Then went to Hayati's hse with Alex to supposedly do the CME project and Mad joined us later.So much for projectwork.We crapped all the way.So fun.hahaha.Had wanted to go cycling but Madh wasn't all for it.Flipping thru this mag and came across this article that really set me thinking.Unfortunate as it may sound,I can't change him unless he himself wants to change.Right?
Band concert happening tonight.Serie Musicale.And I can't believe I can't go!!!!.All cause of last week.When I came home late after doing the mascot.I felt soooo guilty mannn.I'm really sorry guys.sighs.
Guess whose bdae it is in one week.hehe.[hints].nothing more to say.
Cha0!
P.S Happy Birthday Marina!!!!LOL.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
06:10 p.m.

Band vs Dance? I hope not.
Alright.I'll write about the normal crap first before I go on to the more serious business aites?
Well.last night.I couldn't sleep at all.I sms-ed him last night.Asking about some stuff.And from that very first topic,it escalated into us talking about Life and Death,concepts and cultures and a whole bunch of other stuffs.A pity it's gonna be hard for me to change him.But like I told him,I hope all this is just another phase in his life and that someday..he'll change.We finished our "conversation" at about 12.30am last night.After that I laid in bed for a full hour before deciding to sleep.And just as I was being whisked into lalaland,my lil bro came in and snuggled beside me and so did my cat.There,a single-sized bed and 3 things in it.sheesh.I couldn't sleep till 6 in the morning.arh well.met Madh in school and then we went to NP.Came back to school at 1++ and went for dance.tiring really.we did a total of 4 runs I think.rushed home so that I can use the comp.
Now.onto more serious business.Most of you would have heard about this whole band/dance fiasco.And after what I heard today,I seriously thought about this whole thing thru.Question:What is the point of it all???.I know.It's the SPACE.Full-stop.Period.There's nothing more about it right?.But enlighten me if you will..How did the issue of standards and achievements come into this? So what if band got a COP 2yrs ago and dance got a silver 2yrs ago.Mind you,that was 2 yrs ago.[note:TWO YEARS AGO.]What's the point of harping on that?What we are fighting over is space.The right to use the hall.But we can always allocate slots and leave it at that right?Why does badmouthing and dissing and insults have to come into play?I don't get it.People saying we only know how to shake,that we're hippos and other what-have-yous.WHY? Don't tell me that people in band don't have friends who are in dance and vice versa...?Right?Why did the teachers and some of the students have to bring up the topic of achievements???It has absolutely nothing whatsoever to do with how good or bad we are.Yes yes,according to some people,just cause band is COP-certified,it means that they require more attention and yadayadayada.So are you trying to tell me that if both CCAs had gotten the same awards,this whole conflict wouldn't have occurred???? No right? We'll still be fighting over space.But can't that just stop at that?Let the teachers settle it.They're happy,we're happy and I bet you guys are happy.Can't both CCAs work together instead of being against one another?We have absolutely nothing against you guys.I can swear by that.Both CCAs have their strengths and weaknesses.We don't diss you guys,our instructor doesn't diss you guys,none of our teachers does.What's the point right?You'll only waste your breath and effort.I see the whole idea behind it now.But why,why does this have to carry over into normal conversations and people who are feeling pretty neutral are caught in the middle.It ain't fair.Right?What's passed is passed.Fighting and conflicting won't change that COP/silver into anything else.So please.Its getting pretty ridiculous and out-of-hand.Can't both CCAs reach a common consensus and compromise???.I'll leave you guys on that note.
Cha0!
[P.S. I'm sorry if this offends anyone but let's be frank here kay?Go ahead and tag on my board and leave a msg.Tell me how you guys think.Its only one person's point of view.So I'm willing to be flexible and listen to your opinions.aites?]
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
07:56 p.m.

This has just got to stop.
woots~.been suffering minor heart attacks these days.since Friday morning arh.LOL.Yay! I have a new god-sis so to speak.Marina.gonna get another one soon.haha.so yes,finally have someone to call a "sis".hehe.well.I'm dying here at home.I can't belive it.I haven't been banned from the comp but has been banned from the phone.and I'm dying to talk to my friends.I got soooo much to say.*sobs*
oh well.back to my heart attacks.got one on Friday morning.[hehe.].then another one when I my class won the sports carnival.one after school.then yesterday.then one when I was online at night.Didn't sleep the whole night cause I thght someone was mad at me.turns out otherwise so..phew.then erm.let's see.Saturday.nothing much ar.then just now.one of the more major of the minor heart attacks.[geddit?]and I feel like killing 4 people.WTH.how could they?.argh!.nvm.haha.well.gotta go.and a special message going out to a certain CCA....I'm sorry about this whole rivalry.it hurts alot to hear people badmouthing each other.I won't stop supporting you guys.best wishes for all the CCAs taking part in SYF 2005!
Cha0!
Sunday, March 13, 2005
04:27 p.m.

Sunshine always comes after rain.(does it?)
*yawns* I'm so freaking sleepy sey.Just got back from a "nice long walk".From 663 till POSB Yishun Central and all the way back to my block.All that after Sports Carnival.so tired.grrr.
Okay.First things first.My week's been pretty good if you ask me.Monday:School as per normal.Had History test.by right we were supposed to have a Lit test but we bargained with Mrs Bala to have it postponed a day later.hehehe.more about this later.
Tuesday:School Emergency Ex.pretty lame if you ask me.reminded me of CSSP.and the field was sooo blistering hot.I think the chances of the field catching fire is higher than that of the chem lab.haha.had dance after that.came home darn tired.You guessed it,Lit got postponed.AGAIN!
Wednesday:believe it or not.there wasn't Lit.No test.yet AGAIN!Got off class earlier.cause the dancers were going to Kallang Theatre.so yea.the hiphop piece by Pasir Ris Crest is nice.Alot of energy.sheesh.came home @ about 8pm I think.couldn't sleep.
Thursday:unfortunately.our class mascot people weren't very useful.(read:they did VERY little).so yea.me and Hayati had to cram our heads to think of something.Thankfully,Joseph suggested doing The Mask.so yea.afer school,Hayati sacrificed her time to do the mascot using paper mache.we couldn't finish in time and so went over to her hse to continue doing.Madh came over later on.Stayed there till 11.10pm.desperately trying to finish up the mask.LOL.got one hell of a nagging when I reached home.hehehe.couldn't sleep at all.
Woke up early this morning.Met Madh n Yat @ the usual place.Dance my a** off for 1 and a half hours.darn!but yea.3A1 won overall level champ.yay!results of sec3A1 as follows.
Beep test-Corinne and Alex came in first.
Marathon skipping-YeeSuan came in 3rd.
Mass skipping-4th
Dance&Aerobics marathon-Joann came in 2nd.
Banner-1st!
unfortunately,didn't win anything for mascot.but yea.At least we put in the effort and the points sort of got counted also.tired seeeyyy.*yawns*.
okay.got problem to solve.need to sms someone.So here's wishing you Happy Hols!
Cha0!
Friday, March 11, 2005
04:55 p.m.

Life's hard but we gotta live it right?
Hey all.I actually wanted to blog yesterday.but I lost my enthusiasm.okay.brief summary of what's been up.
Last Sunday:Went to CWP to get a friend his bdae gift.went to madh's hse to do PPT with hayati and yea,huda was also there.believe or not,on our way to NTUC,we saw a corpse.seriously!*shivers*i now have a phobia of madhiah's block.lol.
Monday:I remember the week to be full of tests.recess was..erm..funny so to speak.i still don't believe i did what i did.shucks.released early due to the Olvl results.Kudos to those who have made the school proud.don't believe we didn't get a half-day
Tuesday:Dance.as usual.nothingg out of the extraordinary.full day as per normal. sey.
Wednesday:erm.dance.seriously.i don't remember much of it sey.
Thursday:something happened on thursday.i remember my class got into trouble with Ms Soo and now we have to stay back everyday.WTH.Went home and came back to school and went to the R&J play thing.it was alright.the skyline was gorgeous.sat on the grass but otherwise alright.got really pissed off with someone.somehow,cried myself to sleep that night.and no,not cause of the person who made me pissed off,but due to a whole series of happenings that i shall not explain.
Friday:after dance,attended the Student Council Investiture.boring if ya ask me.thanks erwin for making me go.sheesh.but after that,got to eat.hahha.went home at about 7.oh yea,siang ann got caning during PE
well,yesterday was saturday.got up at 7am.had to go for CIP.the queue was so long.lucky we got a move upfront.so yea.me,huda,madh,yat,moon went to CWP first.then slowly,people started turning up there.we knew there was no point doing Flag Day at the same place as 70-odd other people.so went to Sembawang.did a little there.went for breakfast at 10.then went to CWP after that.looked arnd for my other classmates.they other four went to take neoprints.didn't want to join 'em.didn't feel like it.after a while,went back to Yishun to return the stuff.and after that discussed what we wanted to do.Lokman was feeling kinda irritated.hehe.so yea.mich cher n huda went off first to mich's hse to change.me,erwin n lokman went to erwin's hse to change.rushed to sunplaza.caught the movie Hitch with them,junlong,alex,nick,wenjie,jas,ron,joann,geric,mich,cher,huda,irfan(sorry if i missed out anyone).then went home.durh.i sorta cried when talking online to madh.2nd time i cried in 3days.very seldom occurance.feeling PMS-y.cheered up after i did some major bitching with Hafiz.thnx dude!
i miss him.i miss the times when we used to chat online together and he would always be there to listen to me and give his advises.they always sounded so philosophical and memorised.but now I realised how useful and how true some of the stuff he says are.i wonder what it would be like if things had turned out differently.sighs.and definitely,i miss all those times we spent together.oh well.no point pondering on it right? What's done is done.can't be undone.
i realised i've changed alot this year.maybe its just the different environment and everything.been really pressurizing,with all the tests and dance and hmwrk and problems I've had to cope with.i've become more short-tempered,impatient and temperamental.i don't know.i'm really really sorry.Thank god for my understanding friends,bear with it for a while alright guys?at least until my life has settled down and I've adapted.maybe its the class environment also.getting into trouble and stuff.as for my friends-situation,i somehow feel i've been replaced by someone else.its not that i'm against this person,its just the way i feel.maybe its my fault afterall.the four,maybe now five of us,don't spend much time together anymore.i'm always having dance and they're always having their own CCAs.like i said,after April the 13th,it will all be over.but whtr or not my life will go back to normal,remain the same or change,i don't know.it hurts to talk about this kind of thing.plus with the other norms such as missing him,all the tests n hmwrk,i'm not surprised i've changed.maybe its cause i've never been put under this kind of pressure,gotta admit.it's been hard to cope.
so yea.next week's the last week of school.plans for the week:
Monday:hist n lit test.
Tues:school emergency ex.dance from 4-6pm.
Wed:going to kallang theatre for dance.2-6pm
Thursday:chem test.sheesh.
Friday:Sports carnival.sighs.so there,whole week planned.i never had to list down what i'm up for before.now,i have to schedule everything carefully.sucky if you ask me.i've never been an organised person.
well,looking forward to the hols.at least a break from lessons.but definitely not a break from school.still have to come back.seriously,don't see the point of the hols.ar well.gotta go.been online for a while.hope you guys like my new skin.tag alright! and happy holidays! oh yar,happy birthday to all march babies including yours truly.
Chao!
Sunday, March 6, 2005
04:26 p.m.

i'm soooo sleepy
Hellllloooo! First and foremost.Happy birthday going out to to YQ,JL and Erwin.LOL.I'm so sorry I have yet to buy you guys gifts.but a.s.a.p kay?
went to CWP with huda on sunday.walked arnd looking for gifts.i can't believe how much those badges cost.sheeesh.well.tt night was pretty interesting.first time i stayed up till abt 1am in the kitchen alone.finishing hmwrk.well.i had someone's company in a way.so thanx yar?
so yea.wad's been up?erm.honestly nothing much.dance is killing me.and now i'm down for speech day.i didn't get the role of Portia,but I'll be narrating.had a giggly day in school.laughed alot.eavesdropped too.hahha.*guilty*.oh well.i'm so not in the mood to blog.i miss someone alot.especially last night.nearly cried listening to those sentimental songs plus all the memories all came back.haiz.so much has happened in a year.and I'm turning 15 in exactly a month.so there.14yrs and 11mths of my life has gone by.fast ain't it? haiz.so yep.feeling sleepy.
well.well.well.i honestly don't know what to say already.nothing signicant has happened.so i dun feel like typing much.well.i'm chao-ing.see ya.
Thursday, February 24, 2005
07:00 p.m.

one week
Heyyys.It's been a normal week.nothing out of the extraordinary happened i suppose.well.Monday's V-day was dead boring.Nothing much happened.Me,Huda,Win n YQ attended half the IL lesson.Like i said.DEAD BORING.Tuesday went okay.had to go home alone after dance.and it was Total Defence Day.Sat in the hall trying very hard to listen to the PWS.Then the bloody radio annoucement that was barely audible.Wednesday,had dance..AGAIN.Assembly was dead boring.Then,class got lectured by Ms Soo.sighs~What's new?Thursday went alright.After skewl,me,madh,yat,huda,royston and yq went to Khatib to buy choc.Shared it.YQ's imitation is hilarious.had a pretty good laugh.Friday,had dance yesterday.after that went to YJC's Celebrating Values Day.the marshamallows dipped in choc is ultra-nice.I want somemore..and yes Madh,I'll make the brownies.ASAP.came back to skewl yesterday.waited a while a for Huda and went home.sighs~
grr.i've just lost my mood to blog.lol.laterrrr!!Cha0!
Saturday, February 19, 2005
04:15 p.m.

Whirlwind of thoughts
heyyys.okay.i noe it's been a while since i updated.let's just say i've been pretty caught up with things that have been happening.i'll start with Friday shall i?
well.all i have to say is:Friday was a total waste of time!!!!seriously.we talked about love during EL lessons.made me miss him so much.and we had Maths till 8.50am only.believe it or not,i failed my maths test.shucks.then fire drill.mr low's annoucement over the PA system was hilarious."This is a fire drill,i repeat this is a fire drill".i think he said this line about 3 or 4 times over."Evacuated" to the field where it was scorching hot.then we got released for recess at abt 9.15 or 9.20.recess was...i don't know how to put it.the entire school was down.but it was funny.we bullied bernard and made one hell of a noise.and the cup of coke that we gave to the guys.LOL.that was hilarious!.went up to the hall at about 10.10.watched this ultra-boring play about Total Defence.then got "serenaded" by Mr Low.and eventually released at 11.45.had dance 15mins later.was so not in the mood.but at the end of it ms chong gave us chocs.supposed to call madh at the end of my lesson but was dead tired and went home instead.ALONE.poor me.hehehe.didn't follow my parents out that night but instead stayed home,talking on the phone with a friend.poor girl.hope u're feeling better!
saturday.went to the post office in the morning.then walked arnd NP for a while.saw a whole lot of people.called madh out later.then went to CP to look for a friend's bdae gift.can't believe symphony was still closed.met up with hayati but got called home by my bro.sheesh.spent the afternoon slacking arnd and mopping the floor.[you're probably going:so hardworking ar?.but yups.]went online in the evening.had a good chat with a friend.i'm so glad to have helped.all the best to both of you!.sighs~
well.it's sunday and it's back to skewl tmr.so yay.i miss someone dreadfully.hmph!i'm totally envious of madh yet again.oh well.i'll have my turn.hehhe.hmm.wad else.oh yar.somethng going out to some of my buddies.
well.to my clique,i'm sorry if i've lost touched with some of you.i seriously wonder what's been up with each and everyone of your lives.i've been so caught up with dance,PGL rehearsals,my studies etc. i've neglected you guys.i'm sincerely sorry i haven't been arnd to listen and help and whatever.so next week,i'll try my best to catch up alright? so yup.i love all my friends.LOL.*hugs*.so till then....Cha0!!!!
Sunday, February 13, 2005
04:23 p.m.

CNY holidays
heyyys.it's the CNY hols and I'm dead bored.
we wanted to go out but so many shops were closed.so we didn't see the point of it.sigh~
well.yesterday was pretty dull.stayed at home thru out the afternoon and went out to Little India later at night.ate at Komala's.and honestly.i didn't like the food.pure vegetarian.LOL.got my hp topped up.and my hp cover changed.blue to purple.hahha.erm.let's see.nothing much happened yesterdae,but the day b4 yesterdae,tuesday was alot of fun.
well.came in the morning.kinda late i supposed.but dropped by the malay room and helped out the PGL cast n crew.didn't do much reallie.just gave them candy which they totally finished.[sheesh].yep.then went up to get ready for dance.the dance,Asian Fusion, went alright I suppose.PGL was gr8.so relieved~~.than hung arnd the malay room for a while.cleaning up and everythng.crapped a while.we met up later on at Irfan's hse to eat with the money cikgu fahreezan gave us for the effort we put in.arnd 3++ went to CPT,so mani shops were closed.6 of us hung arnd BK for a while,chatting.eventually reached home at 7++.hehhhe.pretty late right.
i'm so frigging bored.maybe i'll sms him.wish me luck.Cha0!
Thursday, February 10, 2005
02:41 p.m.

Sunday
Heyyyyyyy.okay.i'm still sick altho i feel much better now.
I'm totally envious of Madhiah
hmph!.well,I think its about time things picked up for her.
so.APPLAUSE.aku jugak yang tolong right?LOL.
okay.I can't wait to get back to school.LOL.
Tomorrow is a Monday.let's see.I don't suppose I'll have anything on.
Unless that teacher calls for a last-min rehearsal.
hopefully not.
i don't even know whtr I'm looking forward to next week's performance.
maybe.maybe not.
undecided.
well.next week's schedule seems pretty relaxed with the exception of Tuesday.
so Monday,school as per normal.
tuesdae-performance.Dance n PGL.
I'm more worried about PGL.
and i don't know why.
well.February is supposed to be the month of love right?but by the way i see it.i find that more people are getting hurt rather than falling in love.weird right?well.honestly speaking,i'm feeling lost in the whole situation myself.and i can't bear seeing the people arnd me feeling depressed.sigh~.i miss alot of people.namely my camp friends,my friends,him.sighsighsighs.OMG.somethng's happening.hahaha.totally unbelievable.LOL.Cha0 now!
Sunday, February 6, 2005
03:20 p.m.

Damn headache.
Well.Haven't been online since last Sunday I think.hmm.so what's been up? a hell lot of chaos and again,EXTREMELY tiring week.well.i'll try to remember much of the week as I can alright?
Monday-erm.shucks.had PGL rehearsals after school right? Should be ar.then went home.I know.total lameness.but seriously.I'm having a damn headache now.so can't think.oh yar.Mly test.hahaha.
Tueday-erm.dance? then i think i went to PGL rehearsals yet again.came home late.as usual.I think I acc-ed Farahzyan,Nadia to Khatib.LOL.memory failing ar.
Wednesday-totally fun.ahahha.had dance.at the same time had PGL rehearsals.but before that had upper sec assembly.hahha.some 4A2 girls sitting infrnt of me plus WahEng was behind me.so reallie fun.then aft skewl,rushed in btwn Asian Fusion,PGL n SYF.So tiring definitely.But PGL rehearsals reallie fun.LOL.loadsa crap.then went home with Huda.met Fadly n Adly at the busstop.hahha.they talk alot of crap.yea.was late definitely.
Thursday-Yesterdae right? heehe.erm.didn't have anything on after school.but had hot debate with Royston concerning the Casino thing.hhahha.we postponed it to today coz i was losing my voice.LoL.oh yea.i didn't do those SS questions justice.sheesh
Today-again.rushed between PGL,SYF n Asian Fusion.and to top it all of.I had a blazing headache.(still having it now)but it was ALRIGHT i suppose.Poor guy.LOL.okay.then went home thinking that I could catch some sleep.Some "interesting" things happened today.LOL.but no way am i gonna say anythng.just that I'm gonna slaughter either Salwa or him.SHEEESSSSHHHH.well.just as I was falling asleep.Mum asked me along to dinner.and being totally hungry,(i didn't eat anythng in skewl entire day).i had to go.although i was having the bloody headache.haiz~.kinda tired and sleepy now.i actually wanted to sleep.but i realised i shud catch up on wad's been going on online.hahaha.
yea.tmr's a Sat.i am sooooooooo gonnaaa sleep in.ahhaha.besides.i'm falling sick.which isn't a good sign considering that i'm performing next week.okay.i shall take care of myself.and yea.i hate this whole TEACH LESS LEARN MORE business.to me.it equals to ALOT more hwrk.PLP-pre-lesson prep.and longer periods which i find are totally useless.coz a person's normal attn span is abt 20-30 mins.after that,most of us tend to switch offf...rite?so wad's the point of wasting the other 15mins right?sheeeeeessshhhhh.i'm procrastinating like nobody's business.really looking 4ward to the weekend to just chill and catch up on my studies.MAYBE MAYBE.hahahha.well.lazy to type anymore.so gonna say...Cha0!
P.S Shucks.i miss him.
Friday, February 4, 2005
08:19 p.m.

End of January
So yep.First month of 2005 finally coming to an end.
As they say,its been bittersweet and in a way a tad dull.
Besides the fact that he nows knows,nothing out of the ordinary has happened.
No.maybe a LOT of things have happened.
The word CHANGE has a different meaning for me now.
So many of my friends have changed.And to some of them,the change ain't for the better.
I'm just hoping that this "new them" isn't permanent.
I won't be able to take it.
I don't know.So much has happened last year.
I got to know some people really well.
But I guess I failed to realise how long a friend can stay.
Sighs
Well,on the brighter side.
Not everyone has changed for the worse.
I find that certain people have grown more reasonable and understanding.
So yea.Change can work two ways I guess.
And how we respond to them entirely depends on us.
Well.Life's like that.Like it or not.we have to face it and except things the way they are.
Maybe one day,we'll find a reason for all this.
Someday,we'll know.
Well.its a weekend as you know.weekend's been pretty slow.I have to think up somethng for the Puteri Gunung Ledang thing.And I have a few suggestions in mind on how they can improve.I just hope that they'll be taken into consideration.So I'll probably join them for practice tomorrow.stressful life ain't it?
Next week's schedule:
Monday-help in P.G.L rehearsals.
Tuesday:dance
Wednesday:dance.
Thursday:hopefully i'll be free.or maybe we need to have Oriental Fragrance(?) rehearsals.
Friday:dance.
So yep.pretty booked for the week.grr.Plus all the "simple" n "common" tests next week.yep.pray that i don't die of exhaustion.LOL.Cha0!!
Sunday, January 30, 2005
03:08 p.m.

What should I do?
It's been a pretty tiring week I suppose.With dance three times a week.and we've finished the beginnig part.much nicer than the previous one.cause now we're playing with poles.lol.so yup.thanks to my buddies who have "painstakingly" waited for me to finish.
i won't bother summarising the week cause alot happened.thgh nothing significant.it was pretty dull cause our friends were away on OBS.and all of 'em came back looking darker than when they left.hahaha.well,i'll just summarise yesterday.
Ms Tan's been gone for 3days so total yay-ness.3 days of slack.ahahha.then had dance after school.Madh went home with Munyra but came back to school to wait for Huda with me.After dance watched the CNY cum Hari Raya Haji rehearsals.the b***** teacher only told us like 30mins before rehearsals that we were due to perform.WTH sey.grr.then watched the Puteri Gunung Ledang rehearsals.hahahha.funny.and yep,i'm doing the narration part.sheesh.remind me to keep my mouth shut next time.lol.arh well.and some people can still argue with me over the grammar.ahahaha.went home with huda,madh,bernard and royston.bernard's tan is horrible.hahaha.totally funny.
now it's Saturdae.been chatting since 12.25nn.hhahaha.with the normal people.been talking to a friend abt his plans for the future.he's pretty much mapped out what he wanna do but the only prob is acheiving it i suppose.good luck to him.been thinking about what i wanna do now.haiz.i wanna do somethng that has to do with the stage.probably theatrical studies or something like that.but i can't afford NAFA or LaSalle.the fees will like cost a bomb sey.but yea,I do wanna make it to U.get a good job,carve an impressive career,live a great life.hahaha.my dream for the future.wish me luck!
brrr.i'm tired and sleepy.I love this song.hahaha.Grow up by SP.I am so gonna pester my bro to get the SP album for me.LOL.It's pretty dull at home.I wanna go out.catch a movie probably.or just hang anrd with people.My friends especially.haiz.I miss him.yep.been watching Puteri Gng Ledang yesterdae.Damn draggy sey.but I only wanted the gist of the story.So yep.I'm rewritting a new narration.But I'm also typing out their old one.Not fair to them if i totally delete theirs away.so yep.meeting with them on Mondae.I've got a few ideas to improve on the thing.well.gonna surf arnd coz i dunno wad else to do.hahaha.Cha0!
Saturday, January 29, 2005
01:57 p.m.

Summary of my week
I think I haven't blogged for like an entire week or something.Sheesh.Well.as you all may know,I'm on a sort of curfew.it's kinda ridiculous but by the rules,I don't get to go online if I come back afterr 6.so yea.
Its been a tiring week.seriously.haiz.school's is alright.classes with Tan suck.blo*dy teacher.majority of my cohort hates her now.reallie can't believe her man!(more abt this later)
so yea.i was abit worried about going to school.especially after what happened on Saturday.but thank god,nothing went wrong.(like Madh predicted.LOL).my class is a total blast.And Melv,cheer up dude!.so yep.i don't rmbr what happened for the rest of the day.haha.
CME with Tan is sooo00o totally BORING!(i want ms kaur back!)Had dance on Tuesday.Ms Chong is back.so yay-ness.after dance finished,my great pals were still waiting for me.so really grateful to ya guys! thanks soooo0o0 much!.eventually took 811 home cause I was dead tired.reached home and just plonked myself on the bed.wanted to sleep but got woken up by my dad.sheesh.i was soo pissed.seriously.
wednesday:we had a sec3 assembly thing and so Ms Soo talked to us about the level thingy.They want to have those house systems.like the ones in primary school and in some secondary school.the only difference is we're gonna be sorted according to our level.yep.so that's what we did.My grp did our Tee designs.I like the barcode behind and then we found out that the level committee would standardise the design and instead the tees were gonna be for our camp sometime in June.and according to Ms Soo.we may be going to Keluang.the bad thing is:the sec3 cohort may have to spilt into 2 batches as the camp site can't accomodate everyone.sheesh.finished class late as besids the fact that we normally finish at 2.55pm.that *toot* made us stay back and finish all our corrections.and Madh had oredi gone home and believe it or not,I sort of forced her to come back to school to hang with me on the pretext of me wanting to do maths.wednesday was a nice day nevertheless.the whole lot of us making noise and everything in the canteen after school and there was only us and the malays guys arnd.awww.i miss 2A1.probably have a chalet at the end of the year.purely 2A1 '04.if we can get enough people that is.if not,there's always '03.(hehe.okok.JOKING)
Thursday aka yesterday.Maths was a total torture.That fa***tic teacher actually checked everyone's work TWICE.sheesh.and for the sake of only one bl**dy question,I had to stay back and meet her.WTF sey.and Mrs Billie Tan is the best.She noticed we were rather subdued during EL and when she asked,a whole string of complaints came out.haha.totally funny.sighs.conflicting personalities I guess.And why of all teachers did they have to put her incharge of our class?!.She doesn't even know how to handle us.and she wasted like 40mins of the entire Maths lesson.sheesh.And stayed back after Mly cause had to finish our article thing and then had to meet tt u-noe-whu.She made me wait outside the gift shop for like 1/2 hr.and I had to rush to dance after that.was so tired and hungry.Luckily Lokman bought PekShia and myself stuff to eat during recess and PS treated us to drinks.so my recess was completely FREE.hahaa.thanks you guys!LOL.we're changing the first part of the dance and now we're fighting with poles.and we get to twirl the pole around.me and Shuzhen were acting like DMs.LOL.totally funny.went to Old Chang Kee after school.Its certified Halal now.and yep,dead tired went I reached home.
So yea.Its a Friday.I take it as a much deserved extra break after 2 strenuous weeks.I still hate the hols thou.no doubt about that.I miss him.shucks."Where are you?"hehehe.forget it.sheesh.well.I don't know what else to blog about.It's still pretty early in the morning.only 11.30am.haha.r-i-t-e.early huh?It's Hari Raya Haji and we don't have any plans for the day.maybe just sit home and chill I guess.gonna call madh soon.bored.and got news.ehehe.well,wishing one and all Selamat Hari Raya AdilAdha!
P.S And yea,the thing about a certain person/friend being totally arrogant and everythng,well I didn't mean it aites?I totally understand now.Cha0!
Friday, January 21, 2005
10:55 a.m.

A burden lifted
Hey.I can't believe what I just did todae.And I can't believe he was so cool and nonchalant about the whole thing.So phew! after more than a year,I did it.(more about this later)
Yep.its a Saturdae.(durh)I couldn't get to sleep last night cause I was like thinking about whtr I should go ahead and do what I wanted to.So yea,I sms-ed Madh at like 12.15am or sumthng asking for her help,obviously she was sleeping.So no choice,had to sleep.Then woke up early this morning.And started thinking.Went online and SOME people who call themselves friends are well,just plain....I don't know how to put it.So WTH.to h*ll with him.sheesh.thne Madh came online,we talked for a while whtr I should do it.So yes,once again,Madh's the best.hahaha.I decided to do it todae so that in the event anything happens,I have Sundae to mull over things.
Yea.You must be thinking:What is it I'm going on and on about.Well.I told tt "special" someone the truth.Geddit?ahha.Yea,after I don't know how long.And I think he's changed,he's grown abit more erm....understanding?.Maybe maybe.So yup.its a nice feeling to rid of this "burden".And not actually have anything happen,so phew!.I got the answer I wanted.well..not exactly.I didn't count on him acting like he's forgotten.I expected him to ignore me totally or somethng like that.But if that's how he wanna put it,there's how I'll take it.So yup,I'm feeling truly happier than I've been in a LONG time.And my reason for doing all this? I need to get over him.It's been a while.I hope I can.so yea,wish me luck.Cha0!
Saturday, January 15, 2005
04:28 p.m.

Life
Yo people.I'm back!eheh.i'm feeling alot better now.The week's been pretty stressful if ya ask me but hey,the weekend's here.time to chill~.
well.cca orientation was alright i gues.(and going out to a friend,it was reallie nice.REALLY!)fun to a certain extent.but mondae brought a fresh wave of problems.it was like everyone's probs all came out one after the other.it was pretty stressful.i came on the verge of tears many times.so yea.pretty sucky week alrite.i eventually did cry.something i haven't done in a while
but beneath all tt,it went alrite too i guess.i'm beginning to like my class and my class "clique" and we now hang arnd together during recess n after skewl.well.had dance on tuesdae.tiring ar.and with tt bloody mrs loke teaching.sheesh.problems mounted yet again.yea.went home with erwin after a severe scolding from me.(sorrie dude,i was reallie pissed and well,u happened to be stupid at tt time.hehe)
wednesdae passed.went to ICA building with Madh to make her IC.walked arnd the bloody area for a while cause my dad told me there is a bank there.sheeeeeessshhh.so much for looking for it.and he still blamed me.WTF.
so yup.fridae oredi.the week went past in a blur.i've been coming home late this entire week.minus 2dae.but still quite late.reached arnd 5.55pm.i like my sub teachers,the subs are alright and Lit is hell fun.so yep.todae in skewl i gave Ridhwan the cold shoulder and u noe y? for the fun of it.eheh.okok.'fess up.Ridhwan:u did nothing to me,but it was fun watching u look guilty.sorrie.a thousand apologies as they sae it.oh yea,had EL test 2dae.it was ALRIGHT.i'm expected to do well in it.shucks.so yup,when madh n munyra went to lib,i hung arnd with my classmates in the art studio.hahaakx.Ron's damn talkative.Melv is cute.not as in cute-handsome or anythng,just cute-adorable.hahaahah.especially the way he walks.LOL.Nick is the quiet2 sort but ok also.Lokman's fun to bully.And my classmates are generally fun and easygoing.Sam's gone onto the "gay" side.Erwin's got alot of competition now.I'm learning to cherish my class.cause b4 i know it,2 yrs are gonna be gone.i miss 2a1 '04 thou.unbeatable class.
well.in general.life does have their ups and downs.and shucks.i miss him.was walking home with Madh and Royston just now and realised its been tt long.a year plusplus.longest one ever.serious.had a reallie funny dream last nite.not as in funny-haha.funny-weird.hehe.well.i've got loads other things to do.so yep.gonna cha0! toodles~
Friday, January 14, 2005
06:32 p.m.

This,too,shall pass-Trap f Perfectionism

Okay.First and foremost.
SPECIAL THANKS GOING OUT TO....
(drumrolls please!)
SITI MADHIAH!!!!
LOL
okay.thanks so much for listening to me crap.
it cheered me up a whole lot.seriously.
and yep,you'll see the cheery and patient and positive me again very,VERY soon.
erm.till then i walk alone~~.
okay.crap~.
the song's awfully popular now.
boulevard of broken dreams.
okay.enough.haha.
well.just got back frm erm.Harbourfront and a short tour of the Bukit Timah and Thompson area.yup.oh yar.we went up to Telok Blangah Hill also.the old Alkaff Mansion has lost its grandeur unfortunately.yep.then my dad drove to this ulu part of Old Upper Thompson road to see the monkeys lingering there.(entrance to Upper Pierce Reservoir).we saw chickens instead.seriously.hahakx.
well.about to go out now.
going to Courts.erm.for what?
I not sure.
well.looking forward to going back to school.yup.
and once again.Thanks Madh!
*hugs*
hehe.Cha00!
Saturday, January 8, 2005
07:41 p.m.

shucks.
I suddenly feel like blogging again.
despite the good week I've had,I suddenly feel like crying.
I don't know what's preventing me from doing so.
I guess its just the rain and the coldness.
Rainy days do have a way of getting me down.
I don't know why.
*SOBS*.
maybe there are a few reasons afterall.
The first one is that I miss that someone dreadfully.
I soo want this infatuation to end.
It sort of hurts,especially at times like this.
Sometimes,I wonder what life would be like if certain things had turned out differently
I hate to be sitting alone doing nothing.
I ALWAYS end up thinking about "undesirable" stuff.
well.you know what I mean
sheesh.
Life's A Contradiction-Madhiah
I can't agree more.
I really feel like crying or at least talking to someone who I truly trust and someone who gives great advises.
Who?
Who?
Who?
shucks.
forget it.
I'm losing my mind.
i so feel like breaking down.
To those who know the situation that I am in and what in the world I'm going on about,help me if ya don't mind.
Outz!
Friday, January 7, 2005
09:49 p.m.

First week back.
Heyyyoooo...heheh.its the weekends finally.considering that it's only the first week,it's been alright.good actually.not excellent.just good.hahakx.crap~
well.the reason why I haven't been blogging for like 2 daes is coz I've been busy with dance and we've been coming home late.hahakx.
I'm actually beginning to like my class.i can definitely feel a little unity plus all the times when we "pangkat" (read:alliance) with each other to bargain with the teacher ie. like getting to recess early,getting to sit in grps at the hall on the pretext of discussion(Lokman's idea),dissing tt sissy teacher and the list goes on.LOL.we've been having loadsa free periods cause Ms Paul(Hist n SS) is involved in the orientation and so is Mr Yeo.so yups.
like i said,its been a good first week back.and lookin forward to a great year.2A1's still the best thgh.Cha0!
Friday, January 7, 2005
08:41 p.m.

School
Hi ya'll.hahakx.its been a while.hahakx.hmm.well.as you all know,school's already started.really fun.okay.i'll summarise what's been up these days.
MONDAY
Okay.well.i woke up late.yep.LATE.hahakx.and I had promised to meet up with Madh and Huda.sorrie gals.so yea.daddy drove me to school.when to the hall.got the usually talks and crapping from Mr Low,Mr Nath and even Mr Lim.(okok.so mr lim didn't crap.hehe.)well.oh yea.ms soo too.hahakx.erm.everyone was like groaning and sighing away.hahkx.then we went to class.got to meet all our new classmates and our FT:Ms Viviann Tan.(okay.so i'm not overly thrilled,neither am I utterly upset)yea.class was utterly quiet on the first dae.(i started to get worried..how to survive in a dead quiet class??)so yea.luckily i was proven wrong.
TUESDAY
Things started to pick up.Had a good dae.So much has happened.i don't know what to write about.Anywae,after school,had dance.In the mid time watched band's formation.It is kinda nice.different definitely.honest.well.CCA orientation is this MONDAY.yep.M-O-N-D-A-Y.sheesh.well.
WEDNESDAY aka today.
Well.skewl was alrite too.had assmbly.total bullshitty-ness.don't know WTF he was droning on about.skewl ended at abt 3pm.lonnnnnggggg day.tired.watched band again.(shucks).well.went home 5++ and reached home JUST in time to be able to get to use the comp.well.chao-ing out.and ppl,relax alrite??

Wednesday, January 5, 2005
07:55 p.m.

Hyperventilating part 2.
Woots~ I'm in the mood for blogging yea. hahakx.L-A-M-E.I'm feeling super hyper.Hhahkx.Causeeeeee school's stareting tomorrow!!!! wheeeeee~~~~~ I'm soooo excited.hahakx.okay Amelia,get a grip.*breathes in and out*okay.and before i forget..HAPPYYYYYYY 2005!!!!!!! weeeee~~~*breathes*.I must be going nuts.I'll start with what happened on New Year's Eve.
Well,as a tradition with my family,we'll usually go out somewhere at arnd 1o++ or 11 to catch fireworks.Last last yr(2003) we went to Mount Faber and last year(2004) we went to Labrador Park.there was quite a no. of people arnd but I think due to the whole disaster thing and the mood of things,there was only one blast(?) of it.and then there pink "dots" that the ships issued.supposed to be something like fireworks oso.hmm..then walked arnd for a short while.really chilly.then drove home.we acillie intended to stop at Pasir Panjang Food Ctr but majority of the shops were closed.So yep.fell asleep on the way home.
I spent New Year Day at home,mainly chatting on MSN.Rather boring day but erm.where did i go? sheesh.i dun rmbr*thinks hard*.oh yarrr.now i rmbr.went out with family.first to Sembawng Shopping Ctr.to buy my lil bro's shorts cause he outgrew his old ones.then walked arnd abit then went off to CWP to get my bag.(actually my bro was the one who was supposed to buy my bag for me,but he didn't know what I wanted exactly so he gave me the $$ and i got one on my own)so yup.my bag is OP,white wif a bit of pink plus a few orchids as design(ALL HAIL ORCHID PARK!LMAFAO).(and coincidently,Madh's dream Billabong bag is also white.i mean it.PURE COINCIDENCE.and as to why i chose white,the blue one not veri nice as it didn't go with the pink and i'm trying to look more cheery this yr and go bright.LOL)well.then dropped by Smbwg road to eat at the newly opened BILAL RESTAURANT.the food:not exactly excellent(but the weird thing is the Satay guy reminds me vaguely of a cross btw shafiq and fareez.i seriously don't know why.LOL)
i slept really late last night.watched Pet Sematary Two last nite.from 12.30mn-2.30am.really.the show wasn't exactly very scary but it involved loads of animals and I sort of found it really gross.Weird me.hehe.then my uncle came back and he borrowed me this book.John Irving-A Widow For One Year.I've only read the first 2 chpts and it is sorta interesting so I'll probably try to finish it.(darn thick)slept arnd 2.45am i think.
so yea.just got back from Sheng Siong supermarket.hehe.went grocery shopping.that cute lil baby bro of mine is starting his very first dae of skewl tmr.yea.so my mum's all worried and I reckon his all excited.hahakx.he seems pretty nonchalant about it thou.kids.*shakes head*.hahakx.i'm so full of crap todae.and ya noe somethng,I haven't completed my hmwrk.yep.confessions.hahakx.and my books have yet to be wrapped.hehe.i'm such a eleventh-minute-r.okay.crap~
well going off to NP now.to buy my two gals a bdae prezzie each.hehe.okay.before i go:HAPPIEEEEEE BDAEEEEEE!!!!! going out to Cheryl and Madhiah.May all your wishes and dreams come true in the following year! Cha000!
P.S See everyone in school tomorrow!!! cant wait!
Sunday, January 2, 2005
04:32 p.m.

Happy 2005
Hey people.Okay.First and foremost,my deepest condolences going out to the families of the victims of the recent tsunami disaster.
Its amazing what can happen in this world we live in.Life is just totally unpredictable.One moment you're holidaying and enjoying yourself and the next thing you know,you've lost everyone u love.*sighs*
okay.enuff abt the whole death thing.but this days however,I have learnt to appreciate life and the fact that I'm living.One thing is I've done something I've wanted to do since pri6 that is: volunteering.Hard as it may sound to believe,its true.I remember going with jiamin and tammy in pri6 to volunteer at the CS and we were turned away and were told to come back once we were in sec1.well.didn't get to do so in sec1 and yesterdae.i finally got to do it.it was tiring but fun all the same.it was done with Ade,Aishah and Junmei.Yup.and now Jonathan has gotten us involved in the running of YHUBS.and mr raymond huang has also got me thinking on the ways to stop teen smoking.yea.a MAJOR problem in skewls this days.haiz.
well.i guess to actually stop it,we must sort of know why people do it in the first place rite? so yea.gona get in touch with some of my frens who are smokers.*sighs*.just the nite before last,i was sitting arnd in bed thinking of YHUBS and hence all the recommendations and problems that I have thght of.so yup,first mission:gathering a team of students who are willing to commit to YHUBS.
well,i am ready to take up the challenge.definitely.so yup.anyone interested in joining mua?? hehe.Cha0!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!
Friday, December 31, 2004
07:41 p.m.

YHUBS
Morning people.Okay.went out with Aishah and Adelia yesterdae.Yep.we went to Orchard,intended to go to the Silkpro Celebration Tree thingy and do some kinda volunteering stuff otherwise known as the MAD Movement.*MAD-Making A Difference*. so yea.i arrived late.*sorrie gals*.then took MRT to Orchard.*MRT bloody crowded*yep.we saw the carnival thingy.but there was like nooone around except for a few MAD people.we,being the cowards we are,didn't dare approach them.so yea.walked around like idiots then finally decided to grab a bite at Ngee Ann City.so yea.while "eating" this guy Jonathan called Aishah.*our saviour,phew! he called*yup.he told us to come down at 5.30 but WTH we just went there again anywae.When we reached there.again.total hesitation.hhaakx.Ade gathered up the courage and finally asked one of em for Jonathan.*more like the guy approached us*hahakx.then waited a while for him.then we noticed this sign. "SKATING RINK CLOSED EVERY TUESDAY" obviously we were laughing like crazy.*and no.we didnt go down to skate,we went to VOLUNTEER.LOL*yup.so then tt Jonathan comes down and we sorta registered and he briefed us on his plans for this YHUBS thingy.hahakx*EXCO committee cool huh? okok,not yet*.so yea.going down again todae to actually start properly.and maybe going down with a few other peeps.yea.so now.breakfasting.and '05 is approaching.*whoops*yup.i wanna be back in skewl.so yea.HAPPY NEW YEAR going out to all my pals.Cha000000!
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
10:39 a.m.

6 weeks.

feeling sleepy man.sheesh.okay.
let's start with yesterdae.
wait wait.i've already written about that
well.after i went offline.started to wrap the skewl books
*plenty more to go*
then got a call frm Madh.she was dead bored.talked for a while.
refreshing change.
its been a while since i talked to her.
then watched the final episode of 6weeks.
since i'm bored.i'll tell u wat the entire series was about.
First episode
This guy David Wong(Adrian Pang)is due to die from stomach cancer within 6 weeks.Noone knows the truth except for himself and his doctor(obviously).David is determined to settle everythng befre he goes.(blahblahblah)Earlier.david's wife,michelle(steph song) had left home and had stayed over at his parents' place as she was upset with david for being a workaholic.their children,Jason and samantha want their mother back and they start distancing themselves from him.David finds out that Jason is being bullied in school and encourages him to stand up for himself.Jason retaliates,saying that his own dad was a coward himself.David is determined to prove himself.here's how:There is this guy,otherwise known as the Mercedes guy,whu often blocks his car and takes up his parking space every morning.David finally decides to follow this guy to his office and humiliates him infrnt of all his colleagues.Mercs guy is obviously embarassed.this act of standing up for oneself encourages Jason to stand up for himself.David then asks his friend,Leong,to teach Jason basic martial arts and selfdefence.Jason finally stands up for himself and the bullying stops.
second episode
David decides to reconcile with his dad.they usually argue and quarrel when they meet up and David tries hard to make it up to his dad.He finally decides to tell his dad about his condition.David then calls michelle up to seek a divorce.He is determined not to make michelle suffer when he passes on.michelle comes home,determined to make him change his mind as she still loves him.he doesnt dare tell michelle the truth.finally,michelle gives in and agrees to the divorce.she leaves home and stays with his parents again.
Last episode
David stops caring for himself and seems to have resigned to his fate.his children drop over for a visit and sees him and the house in an utter mess.aft cleaning him up.they go out.I qoute "I can't control the amount of time I have to live but what I can control is how and with who I want to spend it with".David decides to conquer his fears of heights.he takes this reverse bungee jumping ride and even decides to get a tattoo to conquer his fear of needles.Just then,he recieves a phonecall frm his dad,saying that michelle wants to return home to Canada.he finally decides that he still loved michelle and wants to be with her till "till death do them part".he collaborates with his parents who were driving michelle to the airport and makes their car stop somewhere along this stretch of road.on the board *those ERP ones*.a touching message appears on the board.from david.michelle is touched and the 2 haf a 2nd marriage.david promises to tell michelle the truth when the time comes.just as David starts preparations for his funeral.he receives a call frm his doctor.he finds out that he may afterall still have time as his cancer has unexpectedly gone into remission.reaching home,he finds his wife going into labour *forgot to mention:Michelle is pregnant with their 3rd child* and that she must be taken to the hosp immediately.rmbr Mercs guy?well.david's car accidently stalls infrnt of his car.and mercs guy is with 3other friends.so yea.merc guy follows david and makes him stop.david is beaten up.to death.so yea.poor guy.just as he thought that he cud continue living.he is beaten up and eventually dies.just as expected.
so yea.really touching if u ask me.the entire series was definitely worth catching.a pity.Channel I is closing down due to the merger.shucks.well.i guess this show sorts of ties in with my Friday 24/12 entry.so yea.probably heading down to Orchard tmr.and yea.slept at 2 the night before cause I was watching Bend it like Beckham.and no.i ain't a big fan of Becks.but what really caught my eye was the women's team football coach,Joe played by Jonathan Rhys Meyers and he is C-U-T-E.*and that is saying something cause I very seldom say if any guy is cute* so yea.he kept me watching.hahakx.girls.haiz.well.Cha0!
Monday, December 27, 2004
05:33 p.m.

erm.what should i call this?
Hello there.just got back frm Sembawang Park.We ie. me,mum,dad,2 lil bros went to our favourtie spot of cause as we knew the rest of the park would be dead crowded.Our spot:somewhere behind the Seafood Restaurant of Bottletree village.We had actually planned on going to ECP to cycle.but t'was getting late so we decided to go somewhere nearby.the water was kinda dirty so we didnt really go into the water.so just sat lazing around and eating.my bro found this coconut shell and me dad and him played bowling.our style.hahakx.so fun but i only scored once.we were laughing at daddy cause he kept on saying it would sure go in and in the end it didn't.LOL.yep.my eldest bro joined us a while later as he was out cycling and sorta dropped by.my lil sibs only decided to get into the water just as we wanted to leave.so had to wait a while more before we left.so phew! tired now.haiz.short entry huh? Cha0!
Sunday, December 26, 2004
07:30 p.m.

X'mas Day Out
Yo!! hahahakx.sheesh.MERRY CHRISTMAS!! [thgh I don't celebrate it.WTH.formalities]okok.had an alright X'mas i guess.Every channel was like showing X'mas shows.ok.I'll start with this morning.erm.Daddy called us at 10am to tell us to get ready as he was bringing us out for breakfast.so yea.my lil bro got his hair cut.cute as ever of coz.hehe.then went home.like durh.later in the afternoon me,mum,dad, and little bros went to Bishan cause Mum wanted to check out this bunk bed which she saw in the papers.The shop was located in Bishan at a bomb shelter.yea.really really.so first time for me being in an actual bomb shelter.i suppose its no longer in use as the toilets and stuff were out of order.and the whole place was packed with furniture.[woots!i'm typing w/o looking at the keyboard~i noe i noe.BIG DEAL!]parents eventually decided against buying the bed as besides the cost.the guy charged delivery n fixing fees.sheesh.we wanted to go to J8 but the carpark was fulled and my dad was deterred.so we stopped by art Thomson cause my dad wanted to check somethng out and then we went home.rested for a while then all of us went to meet my okder bro who was bringing us out for a treat.Waited a while for him and went to eat at Toa Payoh's Banquet.[my 2nd bro was complaining on why we didn't pick a better place.LOL]yea.and after we all ate.my eldest bro thght that it sort of wasnt enuff and decided to bring us to Swensens to eat dessert aka ICE CREAM.so yea.walked all the way to the Swensens.had to wait a while cause we were a family of seven and obviously the restaurant was crowded.so yea.I got a Frosted Malt.not bad i suppose.the rest of the family got somethng too.[durhness]and it turned out that just eating desserts there cost more than us eating at Banquet.hehe.well.my lil bro [yea.the cute one] was throwing a tantrum cause he wanted to visit the arcade.hahakx.so funny.so yea.now I'm back home.real tired.so Cha0!
Saturday, December 25, 2004
10:49 p.m.

Food for thought
I've just read Madhiah's latest entry.
Really illuminating if you ask me.
I guess the death of her grandpa did have an effect on her despite the distance between them.
Well.it must have.but beneath all that she wrote.I realised something more.
What she said is true.
In this unpredictable existence we call Life.we never know when it might just end for us.
We live through our lives,day in day out doing the same things,meeting the same people.pretty much thinking that when tomorrow comes.everything will just repeat itself.
Not to be pessimistic here.but what if that tomorrow you think will come,doesn't?
I've always considered myself to be optimistic.
I live my life day by day and if possible.try living it to the fullest.
I appreciate and cherish everyone around me.
Everyone from my beloved family.my awesome friends.even the friends I've made online.
I try not to take things for granted and realise that one day,all of them might just be taken away from me.
I guess this is how I like my life to be.
One thing that I hate most is REGRETTING.
Never Never live a life of regrets.It's just not worth it.
I've been put in dilemmas countless times.and no.not big-life-or-death situations.
just conflicts whereby my heart and my head disagree with each other.
The most recent being to make the choice of whether or not I wanted to go for that 2nd Raya outing.
I won't go into details of my dilemma cause it's too risky.but my closest friends would know why.
So yea.regretting.Take for example erm.An Escape ride.
When I decided to go to Escape.I made a vow to myself.
"I would take the rides no matter what."
well.to most of you.Its no big thing.
but me.being the coward that I am(I'm scared of heights alright!)it was.I kept telling myself.If I don't take it now.do I want to walk out of the theme park regretting that I did not take an awesome ride just because I was scared?For all I know.that might have been my first and last time at the ThemePark.
Well.despite all this.I do have my fair share of regrets nevertheless.
The biggest one being not telling someone how I really feel and it sort of eventually led to abit of enmity.S'kay now I suppose.
Well.like I said.Always be positive no matter what life throws at you.
think of this.
When you get thru it,you'll emerge a stronger and more experienced person.
Remember:We live for a reason.
What that reason is.it's up to you.
Living your life begins with you.
Learn to love yourself and you will begin to love the people around you.
To all my friends.
(Madh,Huda,Hayati,Royston,YQ,Cheryl,PS,Erwin,Jeriel,Ridhwan-namely my clique)
My classmates.
I'll miss you guys sooo much.
My schoolmates(people outside my class who I talk to on a regular basis.namely the dance girls,WX,MQ,WQ,Waheng,my friends from other classes.)
The people I've gotten to know thru camps and stuff.(namely CSSP n Drama Retreat,and outings)
And not forgetting my online friends.(people who have always been there to listen and put up with my crappiness and have always been there to help and "advise".namely ppl like Liyana(Lia)and yea,Azlan)
To everyone I've mentioned above.Thank you so much for being there for me.
I appreciate it.
And finally,wishing one and all a Happy New Year!!!!
[P.S If I've left out anyone out,please please please tell me.!]
Friday, December 24, 2004
03:12 p.m.

super short entry
feeling very muddled-up.and what's weirder.i don't know why.sheesh.
i am ULTRA bored.haiz.
don't even know where to surf anymore.
i wanna go out again.
mayeb i'll drop by YP later.
hahakx.well.well.i really don't know what to type about anymore.hahakx.
BRAINBLOCK.
sorrie ppl.
so I'll end here.
Cha0!
Thursday, December 23, 2004
02:52 p.m.

Hyperventilating
okay.first and foremost.thankx loadies madhiah for making the pic appear.hahakx.n condolences going out to ya too aites?okay.enough of that.had another enjoyable day with my 3 best buds in the world.Huda,Madh n Hayati.yea.she was with us alrite.
met up wif them at about 1.20pm then we went to YP [favourtie hangout of the moment]Madh stayed till about 2++ then had to rush home.poor thing.hayati went off to meet Azry at 3.15pm n me and Huda stayed till 4pm talking.and lo and behold we sa them again.sheesh.2nd time in 2daes.hahaakx.so a-c-c huda home then doubled back and went home.been nice to get out this two daes with my beloved mates.
so yea.cant wait for X'mas.bro's taking us out for a treat.hehe.okay.i honestly don't know what to blog about anymore.so Cha0! and to my dearest friends.Our friend in HK conveys his regards to us in sunny Singapore.hahakx.see ya!
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
07:31 p.m.

At Long Last.
I am currently feeling ULTRA hyper.seriously.had a good dae.finally met up with my buddies after sooooo long.so yea.this is how my day went.
met up with Madh n Huda at arnd 11.45am.oh yar.royston too.and Huda's lil sibs Najib and Nasuha.then walked to Khatib McD.JL n Ridhwan were oredi there when we arrived.that ridhwan made me lug my guitar there and there was me thinking he was gonna teach me something [he's taking a course].so yea.and it turned out that he hardly knew more than I oredi did.total sheesh-ing.We had actually intended to do our homework but Huda forgot to bring hers.[okok,my fault].So yea.we sat arnd crapping till about 1.15pm then we decided to hang at YishunPark instead.Madh hung till arnd 2.30pm then she had to go home.after that me n huda decided to go to the fitness corner and we left najib alone.he went missing.so we walked arnd looking for him.eventually we spilt up.huda walked arnd YP agen while i walked to the area near her house.finally found the little tyke.turns out that he was hungry,went to 7-11 then went home but he discovered that his hse was locked so he intended to come back to YP.so phew!huda was sooo worried.we hung arnd for a while then went to 7-11 to get a drink.then we saw nazmi n fareez pass by.then nazmi doubled back saying someone wanted our help to get this girl's number.it was soooooo funny.LOL.after a while went home.pity hayati cudn't make it and that YQ is away on holidae.would have been loads more fun.and yea.huda gave the girls 2 ornamental fans and this keychain and the guys got wristbands[thse choker-like ones].stuff she bought when she was away on holidae.Thanks loadies girl!so yea.
came home at abt 5.35pm.cleaned my room abit.[haven't done so in a while]i still need to wrap plenty of books.school books that is.haiz.i soooo wanna school to start.even though my homework pile hasn't moved.heehhe.i heard that our homework is only due on the Fridae of the first week.so slack a bit ar.muahahah.i wanna skewl to start badly.haiz.but gonna appreciate the time spent at home.cause once school starts.i'm gonna miss the hols.funny how human mentality works.haiz.hahakx.i'm suddenly sighing so much.hehe.so yar.before i go.anyone got any nice songs to recommend? i'm dying here people.Cha0!
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
07:54 p.m.

hmmm.
Did my layout the entire day yesterdae so didn't blog.so yea.dance is soooo over for the holidae.so yay-ness.well.yesterdae went to LJS with the dance girls aft class.yea.somethng happened there that has really set me thinking.Are Singaporeans really getting a little too petty? well this is what happened:
I was at the counter about to order when this guy appears at the empty counter next to mine.
Customer:Can I have tartar sauce?
LJS guy:I'm sorry sir.I checked a while ago.It's out-of-stock
Customer:Then what is that thing I see in that tray[points to tray behind the counter]Guy:OH! I didn't notice it sir.Here you go.[hands the tartar sauce over]
Customer:[very angrily]THERE STILL IS THE SAUCE.HOW CAN YOU SAY IT'S OUT-OF-STOCK?DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE DOING??
Guy:I'm sorry sir.I didn't realise it there.
Customer:Do you know what you're doing anot??
the customer goes back to sit down while the LJS guy takes my order.all the time mumbling under his breath.the "customer" sits down with his wife and ocassionally cast angry glances in the direction of the counter.
I do know all the stuff abt consumer rights and blahblahblah.but shudn't tt customer have been a little more polite and civilised?? can't he understand that the guy at the counter is obviously busy.yes yes.i know its slightly the fault of the LJS guy cause he failed to check.but sheesh.people this days.
i was feeling damn melancholic last night.i wasn't sure why myself.maybe its just the holidae blues.but last night.i reallie missed my friends and you-know-who.i thought alot about him suddenly.shucks.i miss him.haiz.so yea.bought my skewl books oredi.they cost a bomb.poor daddy.cause next yr.in addition to my ygest bro starting skewl.my skewl books costs alot of money.and I had to buy ALL.cause my aunt told me not to get 2ndhand ones cause the syllabus might be different.so yea.my dad bought the movie Puteri Gunung Ledang.I watched till the end of the 1st disc and it got wayyyy too draggy for me.it was like soooooo slow.so i gave up watching it.hahakx.i can alwis watch it another time.currently waiting for someone to come online cause i need to ask him somethng.worse comes to worse.I'll have to msg him.sheesh.k lah.tired now.Cha0!
Saturday, December 18, 2004
06:32 p.m.

sheesh
After two failed attempts to write my entry.[due to my little bro].i'm finally alone and has been left in peace.okay.so yea.i'll start with Wednesday.
Wednesday
Okay.i slept better the night before.namely cause i was having this really really nice dream.hehehe.won't go into details thou.LOL.then headed off to dance.it was alright as usual.not as tiring as SYF.so yea.this dance is set for our CCA orientation.(anyone know the date?).after dance.waited a while outside the toilet for MQ and Wenqi while listening to OPMB's percussion section play Canon in D.not bad i suppose.then me and MQ went to McD to eat before going to Central and finally going to NP's Power9 to check out the jackets for the non-SYF grp.i acc-ed my yger bro to the bank and when i reached home got a call from YQ.Apparently.my mum told me someone's been looking for me the whole day.so yea.He wanted me and a friend to a.c.c him to a choir concert at Victoria Theatre.the time:6.30pm the very same dae [aka yesterdae].my mum didn't allow me to go cause it was sooo last minute so sorry ya? so after that it was already 5.30pm.so i took my bike out.cycled arnd YishunPark and had sort of decided to cycle past school to check out whtr anyone was in school but just as i was going out of YP i saw a whole group of band members and it sort of deterred me.as soon as they disappeared.i did cycle all the way to Khatib and just like ventured around the area.dead fun is ya ask me.anyone wanna accompany me the next time? ahhaakx.i'm such a loner.i know.hhaakx.i've gone crazy.okay.before i start crap talking.i'll continue with Thursday aka today
well.horrible.i cudn't sleep at all.dunno why.sheesh.so yea.woken up by my lil bro this morning.breakfasted then went online.spoke to a couple of peeps about some stuff.so yea.i wonder when madh's gonna call.haiz.k lah.tired of typing.i'm out.Cha0!
Thursday, December 16, 2004
02:35 p.m.

another typical boring day
hello hello.hahaakx.i seem so consistent in blogging everyday.well.i AM bored.so WTH.hahakx.got back from dance.my feet hurts.sheesh.and the blister is bleeding again.hahaakx.okay.i'm definitely feeling better and I sort of slept alright last night.only woke up once.so yea.been staying home too much these days i suppose.i seriously needed to go out.so yea.where was i?oh dance.ms chong is BACK!so yay-ness.but tt *toot* mrs loke dropped in and both of em gave pep-talks.sheesh again.so yea.i'm gonna die next year.we're gonna have dance every Tues and Thurs.3-5.30pm.and MAYBE.when its nearer to competition.EVERYDAY!!.so yea.i'll probably have to sacrifice big time and forgo leisures.shucks.i cant wait till SYF is over and done with.like i said.skewl's aiming for gold.so yea.that explains the hard work.cause currently we aren't doing our utmost best.hehe.whad do ya expect?we've been coming back sooo often.luckily ms chong decided not to have anymore practices for the last two weeks of the hols.i seriously need a break before the start of term.cause yea.homework's beckoning.hahakx.arh well.after dance dropped by Cold Storage to grocery-shop cause mum's down with the flu and she didn't really cook.so yea.i'm cooking later in the evening.just frying stuff i suppose.then i dropped by the bank and yea.now I'm home as you can tell.my feet are so aching and I'm missing loads of people namely my buddies and you-know-who.hahakx.i noe u don't.well.looking forward for a CSSP Grp2 outing.but waiting till maybe after x'mas or something.and yea.we got our dance jackets.it's kinda nice.white with blue linings.on the back.swirly purple circles in the backgrnd and the words "[CERTIFIED] dancer" in the same blue my class tee is in.so the blue sort of doesn't match.WTH.yea.the skewl's has build a foutain in place of the "bushes" at the foyer area.and the first floor of the frontmost block has been repainted some sort of white with some sort of maroon.reminds me of those maternity wards in hospitals.ahahakx.sucky if you ask me.well.just thought you'd like to know that.so yea.that's all.Cha0!
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
03:40 p.m.

testing
Don't mind me.I'm trying it somethng.hhahaakx.

if this works.than for your information.its my little bro.
Monday, December 13, 2004
04:31 p.m.

Sick
sheesh.i am soooo falling sick.okay.nothing much is happening these daes.well.been having insomnia for the second time in two nights.i dunno why i cant sleep.its like the night before i slept at 12plusplus.woke up at 2.30.finally slept again at 4.30.woken up at 8.30 by my sibs.usually when i cant sleep is cause i'm worried about something.you know me.total paranoid.LOL.the last time i suffered from "insomnia" was like 3weeks ago or something.when i was really really worried about the class barbecue.after barbecue and Escape.i slept peacefully.and now its back and i have absolutely no idea what I'm worried about myself.interesting huh?.so now i have a damn headache and am really sleepy.not to mention bored.i really wanna go out with my friends but I haven't contacted them these days.plus I think Huda's away on holidae.Madh's probably out with her cuzzins.as for YQ and Roy and the rest.erm.i'm not sure.sheesh.at least i get to go to skewl tmr for dance and HOPEFULLY Ms Chong is back.plus we're getting our dance jackets.and yea.i haven't paid WX yet.sorrie girl.okay.like i said.i so wanna go out.so if you're having any outing or whatsoever.dial me up if you dun mind aites? Cha0!
Monday, December 13, 2004
03:58 p.m.

just another entry
heyheyhey.i've been trying to sort out my previous archive mistake but I'm getting nowhere.so.what the hell.okay.i don't know what to blog about but i am dead bored so hey.again.what the hell.okay.i'm talking crap.crap talking is kinda addictive you know.muaahah.okay.enough of that.well.i couldn't sleep last night so there I was tossing and turning around in bed.loads of things were going thru my mind.i guess i onli fell asleep at about 3++ or 4.and so yea.sleepy now.currently listening to Paradise City.Someone's really got me listening to GnR.I love the guitar vibes.coolness.well.enough of that.I don't know what else to write about.prbably visit PlanetCrUsh.it's been a while since I've been there.and probably going out later tonight.where to.i ain't sure.oh well.happie birthdae going out to Tammy.MeiQin.Susan.Chao!
Sunday, December 12, 2004
05:35 p.m.

i reallie can't think of a title.
hey all.well.didn't get to finish up my last entry as i had to like rush off.oh well.i'm sick of writing about what's been happening.and if you're wondering.life is great.and no.i'm not being sarcastic.it reallie is.its just that all the dance practice and stuff have been taking its toll on me.its like ms chong is down with chicken pox and mrs loke totally sucks at taking class.she's forever contradicting herself and treating us like 5yr olds.she plays tt CHILDREN PIANO thingy each time we're strecthing and is forever changing the steps to suit her own preferance.hello!!!!this is SYF mind you.can't believe it.and there she is going on and on about how we're not up to standard.thankfully for us.ms chong's coming back next week.so phew!.
so yea.where was i?oh ya.my life.like i sed.everythng's going gud.i cant believe how fast time has passed.i'm definitely approaching 2005 with optimism.cant wait for it to start.i miss my friends.like reallie reallie.i miss skewl and everythng abt it.mebe we'll go out next week aites?.sheesh.skewl's starting in like 3weeks and my homework pile hasn't reallie moved.and yea,i haven bought my skewl books yet.as for my bag.i'll probably be getting a sling bag.my bro's agreed to buying my bag for me.so yea.tt's gonna be considered a surprise.
you know.its the hols and i've been thinking alot about life and stuff.i mean.at the rate things are going before you know it.you're a working adult and you may be married.sometimes i wonder about what is it that i reallie want in life.its like.sometimes i myself wonder whtr i am reallie happie even.grrr.oh well.before i get myself all muddled up and confused.i'll chao.so this is me saying Bye.enjoy!
Saturday, December 11, 2004
05:37 p.m.

back!
Hey there.I'm back!I got this week long ban from using the comp and the phone cause I've been breaking curfews.*grins*.typical me.okay.so what's been up? nothing much i reckon.let's see.I'll start with the Tuesdae following the previous entry.
TUESDAY
dance.
i dunno what else happened.
WEDNESDAY
dance again.
again,total blankness
THURSDAY
erm,I know I went somewhere.I just can't rmbr where I actually went.sheesh.
FRIDAY
erm,had dance in the morning.After that went to meet up with Huda,Roy,YQ,JL to catch Shutter.Had a hard time deciding what to watch as Huda,Roy n me wanted to watch Shutter whereas YQ had watched it twice before and JL,well,let's just say he was feeling pretty anti-horror at that time.Well,the movie is a total no-no for people with weak hearts.hhahakx.but it was ALRIGHT i guess.After the movie finished we still had time as YQ was onli expected home at about 6pm.So we hung arnd Yishun Park,playing arnd and then we played the 1-99 game cum Truth or Dare.You won't believe what Royston did.hahhaakx.pure sabotage by us.Then we a.c.c-ed YQ home and went home ourselves.reallie fun.
SATURDAY
a-c-c-ed my brother to ACS(Barker Road) to get some bursary.shessh.gotta go now.
Wednesday, December 8, 2004
05:55 p.m.

2nd Time Hari Raya
Hey All.okay.its a erm,Wednesdae rite? ehehhe.Okay.Went raya-ing for the second time on Mondae,only this time with my sec3 "friends".[note the " "].The whole thing was supposed to be on Tuesdae and I had spent a LOT of time deciding whether or not I should go.Then coincidently,I was talking to Lan tt morning and something in me told me to give Huda a call.Luckily for me,I did.Thus found out about the whole change and stuff.So I sat at the comp,trying extremely hard to decide whether or not I should go.Eventually,with the help of a few friends,I decided to go.So met up with Huda,then went to Nadia's hse.Syahidah,Ashyura were already there.So,after a lot of fussing over make-up and stuff,we went over to Fareez's house where the whole group was supposed to meet.Reached there around 2plus.hahakx.so embarassing cause it's like we were the only sec2s around.so at about 3pm,we started wondering whtr or not they were going to actually go visiting or whtr they were just gonna sit around and chill.So syahidah n nadia started to get really bored and in the end we decided to drop by Huda's hse first and meet them under the void deck when they're ready to go.We turned up later and in the end met up with them at Fahtin's hse.again,we left earlier than they did.finally,at Aisyah's hse,the gals realised that everythng was becoming toooo draggy so finally,at Syaiful's hse,we pangkat with Azlan to have him gerakkan the guys if the girls thght we had spent enough time at a particular house.So after that,everythng went alrite.Nadia n syahidah had already gone off to CP cause they couldn't take it anymore.All in all,it was a fun day.Darn tiring cause of the distance we had to walk from AMK MRT station to Lan's hse and tt *toot* Suhairie made us all walk to his house frm the MRT station when we could have taken a bus that would have stopped in front of his block.Sheesh.Went home with Nilam and Adly in a cab cause we live in the same area.Reached home at 12mn,surprisingly..no scolding.hehehe.But received blisters on the soles due to all the walking.Hmmm.Remind me not to wear heels if I ever DO go out with them again.Take Azlan's suggestion to wear Heelys.hehehe.Well,like I said,I had a good time all the same.Cha0!
Wednesday, December 1, 2004
04:45 p.m.

Angst.
i'm like extremely bored.haiz.i'm just lost my mood to type.Grrr.Hmmm.Wad's been up?Erm.nothing much.erm.regained my appetite and lost my insomia.been feeling great this days.what can i sae? life's been dealing me a gud hand these daes.thankful for it.i seriously can't wait for term to start.grr.okay.mum's nagging to get off the comp coz sumone's coming.darn.arh well.going to huda's open house later.so Cha0!
Sunday, November 28, 2004
11:32 a.m.

Dilemma,and everything else.
Well,I did say I was gonna write about Tuesdae aka Escape day.I'll just summarise it arh.It's too long anywae.hahakx.okay.reached YCK MRT station at about 9.10am.i was like rushing cause we had agreed to meet at 9am.but lo and behold,onli Huda,Wan,YQ,Roy,Glenn and siangann ever turned up by the time we left at 9.40am.so in the end,me,huda,yq,roy,glenn took MRT,ate McD at White Sands then took bus to Downtown East.First up was the Flipper.And me,being the coward that I am,closed my eyes for the majority of the ride.Hey,can't blame me.First time at Escape.Hmph!.Wan didn't even dare go on it.muahahahha.then we took erm,was it the viking ship or rainbow or walls? by that time we had met with keyan and fongmui.Viking ship was scary,for me that is.and so was Rainbow and Walls.hahahaakx.Took Wet&Wild a total of EIGHT times.muahaha.so got a chance to ride with everyone besides Erwin.fun.I luv Panasonic.so nice.but what a pity.so little people turned up.There was only me,huda,yq,roy,wan,g,ps,cher,win,siangann,salwa,glenn.it WAS meant to be a class thing but haiz.even the guys we invited cudn't make it.nvm.reached home at about 10.30pm
went raya-ing yesterdae.it was ALRITE i guess.came back at 9pm althgh i had promised to be back by 8pm.WTH.ehehe.typical me.breaking curfews.
okay,so now i'm in a dilemma.received an "offer" to go SOMEWHERE on Tuesdae.I CAN go,I WANT to go,but I don't know whether I SHOULD go.cause me and erm,"them" have got some "issues".hehehehe.Hmmm.Should i or should i not? whaddya think?
okay,I finally got a good nite's sleep last night.been having insomia these days.so finally woke up this morning feeling better.and i'm finally eating decent meals again.
haiz,troubled though.cause i'm missing SOMEONE like,ALOT.Don't know why,it's just all of a sudden.Can't wait to start school.home's getting boring.then again,i haven't so much as touched my HW.muahahha.so plans for next week:
1]that tuesdae outing i haven decided on.
2]dance.dance.dance.THREE times a week,THREE hours each time.sian.
3]thurdae go for "movie-marathon" with my three currently closest buds. ie.yq,roy,huda.probably watching shutter and the incredibles.haven't decided on a third movie or whtr we are even watching a third one.sheesh.poor yq,gonna watch Shutter for the third time.muahahaha.ar well,i don't know what to write anymore so Cha0! [gosh,i miss him]
Friday, November 26, 2004
04:01 p.m.

Barbecue or barbeque?
HeyHeyHey.It's been an awesome two daes.Haven't touched the comp in a while so no time to update.And I'm still going Hari Raya-ing later.So now I'm gonna update it as fast as possible.BEWARE.It's gonna be long.

~MONDAY~
Mondae was BBQ dae.Woke up at 7.45am cause my dad had requested that I go to Wdlds Civic Ctr to settle some stuff.Then after that,dropped by Khatib to buy fishballs.Unfortunately,the fishballs there were wayyyy to expensive and I had to drop by 200+ eventually.Then bought some other stuff and in the end was late for my appointment with them.Finally met YQ,Royston,Madh at 10.50am.YQ n Roy was wearing the exact same shirt,only in different colours.Yq was totally pissed.Hahahakx.Then they came over to my place and we skewed satays and then we dropped by Madh's place where Huda joined us.Then Roy's dad drove us to ECP.By the time we reached there,everyone was aching cause we had been cramped behind.The stuff was like soooooo heavy and believe me,there was alot of stuff and I mean ALOT.So Madh guarded the food while we tranported the stuff to pit 14.A while later,went to NTUC with Madh to buy some last minute stuff.Our class arrived at about 4+ which is kinda late considering that they had planned to meet at 1.30pm but what I heard from some pips were that a few people were late by an hour plusplus.Hmmm.At about 6.30pm,most of the 2A1 '03 pips turned up.I was soooooo relieved to see them.Then at about 7+,Helmi,Suhairie and Hafiz [3B1] turned up,wearing IDENTICAL green jackets or whatever its called.So much for YQ and Roy being identical.Then Ms Kaur called Erwin's phone and Erwin,being the fool he is,gave the phone to Helmi and there went the big surprise.Ms Kaur turns up a few minutes later.By 10++,alot of people had left and there was only me,Huda,Ridhwan,Erwin,Ps,cher,Waheng,Huixia,G,Helmi,Su,Hafiz and Shafiq left.The darn malay guys only started eating after I told em that I didn't care about the money anymore.While the rest talked,me,erwin,ps and them were gathered around the grill,talking,crapping,basically teasing each other.Whole lot of fun.Left at 11.30 cause Wan's dad had offered us a ride home and ps,cher,win,g,waheng,hx left at abt 12++ in Ms Kaur's car.i'm not sure what happend to the pit after that coz the malay guys were still cooking and eating when we left.I hope they did clean up otherwise me and Cher wud lose our necks.So there,that was onli MONDAE.I'm oredi late as it is,so I won't talk about tues yet.So once again,special thanks to 2a1 '03 who had in a way graced the ocassion. [hehehehe] and thanks to everyone who had turned up.I really,really appreciated it.see ya at the next gathering.i'm out!
Thursday, November 25, 2004
09:08 a.m.

The day before the barbeque
okay.i'm dead tired but i'm gonna make this effort to write stuff in.been out the whole dae.first we went to my bro's fiancee hse..aka my sis in law to be's hse.hahaak.then we went to my dad's sis'hse.then my dad's bro's hse.then my dad's fren's hse where she was having an open hse.ahakx.then there,i received two sms-es.one frm my bro and the other frm an unknown no. desperate to know whu it was,i called back.lo and behold it was acillie YQ.ahhahaak.then madh called and we confirmed plans and stuff.so yea,looking forward to tomorrow.BBQ. and i'll probably be going to Escape.but must see first.well,wish me luck for tomorrow.i hope everything goes smoothly.SEE YA!
Sunday, November 21, 2004
09:54 p.m.

Update
Hey all..been reallie busy these days..and haven been coming online often.Okay..17th november went alrite...besides Madhiah breaking her promise to meet up TWICE! hmph...and no..don't worry..I no longer angry..well..i got into class option A..will be known as 3A1 from next yr onwards..class will probably be a repeat of 3a2 '04..coz there's the retainees,us [part of my clique],some ppl whu r EXTREMELY noisy yet fun,people who I don't like alot and alot more..hopefull it'll be fun.Thankfully,everyone close to me got the class they opted for.Well..i wish them the best..as info..i'll add wad class they got into...
T-3S1 E-3S2 A-3A1 C-3A2 H-3A3
Madhiah: 3S2. U got wad you wanted..work hard alrite..i know u can do it..and teach me a lil of Bio if u dun mind..i wish i cud haf taken it..all da best!
Huda:3A2. well..gud luck to u too gal..just stay focussed and you will be able to do it. I'm expecting help for Maths.I'll help u in Hist and I wonder whtr u got the change u wanted..hmmm...
Hayati: 3A1. yay...she's in MY class..hahakx...and dun worry abt whu's in the class..just pretend they're aren't there..i'll be doing the same thing..and I totally support your aim to be focussed...
Erwin: 3A1. another classmate. muahahaha. well,i dunno wad to say just tt i noe u can do it if u put ur mind to it.work hard.
YuQian: 3A2. yay! he's STAYING. okay..erm..same advice as the one for Erwin. dun daydream no more okayyy?? and yea..put ur talents to gud use.all the best!
Royston: 3S1. hahahakx..a geek-to-be...no no..joking.well..work hard. dun be overly-sensitive anymore..understand tt sum things are meant to be.don't question every lil thing...and yea...all the best!
PekShia: 3A1. hahahakx...my partner in crime to be..we gonna wreak havoc huh? but see first okay? mebe i'l be kwai next yr..muahahaha...and yea PS..concentrate...and tolerate the ppl arnd u....we'll help each other aites? gud luck!
Cheryl: 3S2. okayy...i noe u not exactly happie abt the class but learn to live wif it alrite..gonna miss crappin abt OPMB wif ya....and go attend lah u..haiz..well..work hard..i noe u haf in u gal..all the best!
Well...there was goin out to my clique..i'm reallie gonna miss being in the same class..but dun worry..we gonna gather during recess and aft skewl aites? hahakx...next yr...canteen table war...muahahahhaa...sounds reallie childish tho. but WTH..if the two cliques..by sum miracle becum frens..we gonna negotiate..hahakx..if not..first come first serve...ahahakx..well..had fun on thurs..went shoppin' and of all places..SHENG SIONG SUPERMARKET...so fun.royston was weird.if he liked sumthng he'd just pick it up and put it in the basket...hahahahakx..well..looking forward to the BBQ.Hope everyone invited will turn up.We put in alot of effort into it.Don't let it go to waste pls? hoping to see everyone there...so there..having open house as we speak..hehehee...so gotta chao..i'm out..
P.S Great job with the class tee..luving it..
Saturday, November 20, 2004
06:43 p.m.

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